so it feels like forever that we've been dealing with the coronavirus, and travel plans have been put on hold indefinitely (i was really looking forward to that road trip across the south ): ): ):) but instead of that, or doing any actual travelling, i'm going to (finally!) talk about the last three trips i took instead. yay for writing things down ( Read more... )

it feels like every year 'there aren't enough hours in a day' becomes truer and truer. this past week has been a total madhouse, between juggling work and trying to look for a new gym slash exercise regime, meeting friends and trying to find time for tv and the internet, spare time feels like a foreign concept ( Read more... )

a very peculiar thing happens when you transition into an environment where you're not on your own after being alone is pretty much your default mode of being. i swing from wanting the company to so desperately wanting time on my own that i volunteer for solo forty-five minute walks in the sweltering heat, or staying up till 6am every morning ( Read more... )

i've never been the kind of person to talk about my feelings when i'm upset. blog about them, sure, but actual communication, not so much. i think i could've been a talker, maybe, but too much has happened to get in the way of that. people always disappoint you, so it's better not to give them the chance to try ( Read more... )

i'm watching the final season of american idol right now and getting weirdly emotional about it. i haven't even been watching it the past couple of seasons, really, but the idea that it's not going to be around anymore still makes me kind of irrationally sad ( Read more... )

there is so much that is crazy about life right now. the hours, the commute, the work. but i think it's working. everything's starting to come together in a way that didn't really happen for me last year. a big part of that is recognising that as good as evanston was to me, chicago is where i should be. need to be. i try not to think about all that ( Read more... )

mostly i'm doing this because i'm trying to stave off the start of a panic attack by procrastinating thinking about school at all, but also i'd really like for there to be some kind of record about the amazing time i had when i got to go home for the first time in a year, holy crap. plus i got to spend my birthday at home, which--how awesome was ( Read more... )

everything always seems so much more dire when you're sick. we had our first casualty to the program this quarter (which--i didn't even know we would have any) and it's just driving home the idea that that's an option ( Read more... )

feeling inexplicably grateful tonight. i was just watching the rewrite, and it's somehow terrible and charming all at once, as most hugh grant movies are wont to be, and jk simmons played a principal who got all weepy every time he started talking about his family. which was so gimmicky, and made me roll my eyes every time they trotted it out, but ( Read more... )

chicken rice party with new friends tonight! i was convinced i wouldn't make any when i got here, and i still don't think many (if any) of them are people i'm going to consistently stay in touch with once we're out of school, but they're people i can comfortably spend a couple of months with, if not years, and that's really nice. it helps to fill ( Read more... )