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All right, for starters. Twas my bday on Tuesday, was alrite, but I have learnt the tough lesson not to expect a lot on my bday. I don't mean presents or anything like that, but don't expect much from people. This year was no different. The girl I really like said she wouldn't come because she was embarrassed of me, the girl I used to like said she wasn't coming but did anyway. Someone I thought was a great friend came but I barely saw. Unexpected people came, and I had an absolute ball with them. Finally someone that actually wanted to be with me on my bday. (Or if they didn't, they did a damn good job of pretending which counts too).
The end of the working week for me, and I thought it would be nice to catch up with an old friend, alas, they are busy. It happens, I know. But it ALWAYS happens. Then too, they can't come to my bday party, tomoz night. For another year. They didn't come last year, I think I might have talked to them last year on my bday.. maybe. I don't think so. My bday dinner was much the same. Noone wanted to be there.. so it ended up people just making up shite excuses and leaving to go to better things. Fun fun.
The girl I really have taken a fancy to, is simply amazing. Somehow she has the same ability that I either find or create in all girls. Somehow, I can be really pissed at them, and within five minutes of seeing them, it compleltey switches and they're pissed at me and I feel bad. I keep trying and trying. Thats my problem. Well my main one. Yeah I know all those non-existant people reading this out there know of many other problems. Manic depression, borderline ADD, mentally unstable, fiery temperment. I know all this.
I know whats gonna happen. And those who are close enough to me can put it down to two outcomes. If they try. I know one person that will know what I will do if they think about it. But they won't be reading this. Plus they won't be bothered to think of it if anyone asks them either. You know who it is. Stop thinking too hard and look around.
It's amazing how fast people can break promises. Not fast, but how easily. Without even flinching. Without even caring.
Well there's my rant, aside from myself, I'm talking about two people only. It's not even the two you're thinking of. Meh, f'n over it.
The end of the working week for me, and I thought it would be nice to catch up with an old friend, alas, they are busy. It happens, I know. But it ALWAYS happens. Then too, they can't come to my bday party, tomoz night. For another year. They didn't come last year, I think I might have talked to them last year on my bday.. maybe. I don't think so. My bday dinner was much the same. Noone wanted to be there.. so it ended up people just making up shite excuses and leaving to go to better things. Fun fun.
The girl I really have taken a fancy to, is simply amazing. Somehow she has the same ability that I either find or create in all girls. Somehow, I can be really pissed at them, and within five minutes of seeing them, it compleltey switches and they're pissed at me and I feel bad. I keep trying and trying. Thats my problem. Well my main one. Yeah I know all those non-existant people reading this out there know of many other problems. Manic depression, borderline ADD, mentally unstable, fiery temperment. I know all this.
I know whats gonna happen. And those who are close enough to me can put it down to two outcomes. If they try. I know one person that will know what I will do if they think about it. But they won't be reading this. Plus they won't be bothered to think of it if anyone asks them either. You know who it is. Stop thinking too hard and look around.
It's amazing how fast people can break promises. Not fast, but how easily. Without even flinching. Without even caring.
Well there's my rant, aside from myself, I'm talking about two people only. It's not even the two you're thinking of. Meh, f'n over it.