wow..

[envyisignorance]

i havent updated for awhile, ive been busy. Im so glad school is done. I thought summer was going to be a time to realax... but ive been so busy. I guess thats a good thing though. It gives me less time to think.. and we all know when i start thinking about all that stuff that worries me its on good. I find myself getting sad at night more often. Its like all day im busy with work, and just doing stuff...but when i come home and get into bed and stair at the ceiling i start to ponder and think... and i just get so upset sometimes. i think im going to get an ulser... cuz i worry all the time. I really dont want to become depressed again.. because when i was before... well you all know that it was no good. Im sick of my brain... maybe i should take up smoking weed.. and kill some brain cells. Speaking of smoking, i smoked a cigar last night.. it was the first time that i have in a long time.. i enjoyed it. Dont worry its not going to become an every day occurance.. but i do enjoy it every now and then. haha.. jen was so weirded out by seeing me smoke something.. since im so against smoking weed/cigarettes. ha.

We watched nightmare on elm street last night.. i think it was the 3rd one.. it scared me so mike turned it off. it was really funny, dan came into mikes living room sat next to me on the little couch and just passed out.. he was messed up.. needless to say. Poor danny.. haha he was talking about how he was lonely.

i have to go to work in like 20 min.. and i really dont want to.. i hate work. but once i get there its not so bad. its another thing that takes my mind off of stuff. well i think im going to go. i want to watch t.v.

adios

niki