fuck.
this is definitely karma....
all the shit i've put guys through in my past has come back to bite me in the ass. bigtime.
actually, it bit me in the heart, taking my aorta and a chunk of my left ventricle.
but that's ok.
i'm a strong girl. i can take this.
i just have to keep telling myself that just because i feel like everything in my life is falling apart,
that's really not the case.
this is all a learning experience,
and although every hour i feel a new emotion that surpasses the intensity of the last,
it's ok. i'll get through this.
no one was out to get the other one,
things like this just happen.
i just wish it hadn't happened at THIS time, when everything in my life is already disheveled to a great extent.
i can't quite figure out how i'm feeling, and if it's stemming from hurt, anger, or just plain confusion.
i'm putting blame on myself and just wanting others to be happy, even if that means it's killing me inside, but that's who i am.
just because i can't be perfectly content, doesn't mean no one else should.
this just sucks.
but i will move on, and things WILL get better.
they always do.
there better be an opportunity to get wasted this weekend, or all hell's gonna break loose. :-D
all the shit i've put guys through in my past has come back to bite me in the ass. bigtime.
actually, it bit me in the heart, taking my aorta and a chunk of my left ventricle.
but that's ok.
i'm a strong girl. i can take this.
i just have to keep telling myself that just because i feel like everything in my life is falling apart,
that's really not the case.
this is all a learning experience,
and although every hour i feel a new emotion that surpasses the intensity of the last,
it's ok. i'll get through this.
no one was out to get the other one,
things like this just happen.
i just wish it hadn't happened at THIS time, when everything in my life is already disheveled to a great extent.
i can't quite figure out how i'm feeling, and if it's stemming from hurt, anger, or just plain confusion.
i'm putting blame on myself and just wanting others to be happy, even if that means it's killing me inside, but that's who i am.
just because i can't be perfectly content, doesn't mean no one else should.
this just sucks.
but i will move on, and things WILL get better.
they always do.
there better be an opportunity to get wasted this weekend, or all hell's gonna break loose. :-D