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It truly is what happens while you are busy planning.
I have heard that saying at many times during my life, however it has never been more true than at this point in my life.
On Sept 1st I told Eric I knew it was silly, but I really felt pregnant, AGAIN! I had felt that way for about a week, however I knew that was not possible, right?
We just had a baby, it takes a good while before you can get pregnant again right? We also assumed it would be harder for us.
Well I took a test that day (Sept 1) in the afternoon, it quickly said, positive...
I have to admit to feeling shocked, crying, saying noooooo! We were planning to wait 2-3 years before trying again... I had only one very short cycle exactly 6 weeks PP how could this happen, I am not ready to be pregnant again!
Add to this we had found out that the housing on the Res had asbestos and we would have to move again!
I threw the test out deciding that it must be a bad test and I would retest in the AM.
I retested and it turned faster to positive... I cried and felt really really torn.
We lost 3 babies before having the great one we have and we wanted 2, but now? After getting a calendar out and seeing that they would be 10-10.5 months apart~ On the other hand if I miscarry this time it is not even an issue, if I don't maybe I should just accept it as the universe telling me now is the time for us... If I choose not to have the baby what if we never have another chance?
A week later still mostly in denial I bought another test, one of those digital tests that say "pregnant" or "not pregnant".... PREGNANT!
I think at that point it became real for me, but it took another week for me to accept that if this baby stuck then we were going to have another baby in less than a year after we had our first baby...
We packed and moved to Co and did not really even talk about the fact that I was pregnant. Eric says it took him 2 weeks also to get over the shock...
So here we are living in the moment and fully accepting that the universe keeps moving even(especially)while we are planning our lives. We have our first midwife appointment today and I find myself getting excited and asking the universe to PLEASE let me hear the heart beat today with the doppler... It is on the early side, but we heard Perrin at this point and depending on where this baby is I am really hoping.
I am 11 weeks pregnant, yes almost out of my first trimester and I have a 3.5 month old baby.... WOW!
Well that is life... lol
I have heard that saying at many times during my life, however it has never been more true than at this point in my life.
On Sept 1st I told Eric I knew it was silly, but I really felt pregnant, AGAIN! I had felt that way for about a week, however I knew that was not possible, right?
We just had a baby, it takes a good while before you can get pregnant again right? We also assumed it would be harder for us.
Well I took a test that day (Sept 1) in the afternoon, it quickly said, positive...
I have to admit to feeling shocked, crying, saying noooooo! We were planning to wait 2-3 years before trying again... I had only one very short cycle exactly 6 weeks PP how could this happen, I am not ready to be pregnant again!
Add to this we had found out that the housing on the Res had asbestos and we would have to move again!
I threw the test out deciding that it must be a bad test and I would retest in the AM.
I retested and it turned faster to positive... I cried and felt really really torn.
We lost 3 babies before having the great one we have and we wanted 2, but now? After getting a calendar out and seeing that they would be 10-10.5 months apart~ On the other hand if I miscarry this time it is not even an issue, if I don't maybe I should just accept it as the universe telling me now is the time for us... If I choose not to have the baby what if we never have another chance?
A week later still mostly in denial I bought another test, one of those digital tests that say "pregnant" or "not pregnant".... PREGNANT!
I think at that point it became real for me, but it took another week for me to accept that if this baby stuck then we were going to have another baby in less than a year after we had our first baby...
We packed and moved to Co and did not really even talk about the fact that I was pregnant. Eric says it took him 2 weeks also to get over the shock...
So here we are living in the moment and fully accepting that the universe keeps moving even(especially)while we are planning our lives. We have our first midwife appointment today and I find myself getting excited and asking the universe to PLEASE let me hear the heart beat today with the doppler... It is on the early side, but we heard Perrin at this point and depending on where this baby is I am really hoping.
I am 11 weeks pregnant, yes almost out of my first trimester and I have a 3.5 month old baby.... WOW!
Well that is life... lol