{Xantha} questions
Too many things to go thru. Too many emotions. Where to start? Its been 5 yesrs now since my Ol'Pa died under that damn lift, number 3. The one on the end. I spent the weeks before alone, dressed in black, the anniversery itself alone in the garage. All out of respect. I miss the Old Man. Yet if not for his death, I might not be aware of what I am. A paradox really. I want my Pa back, but I dont want to lose what I am. So which way?
Then there's Erik. The handsome sidhe that has stollen my heart. Would Pa like him? I guess he might've. I got this letter that said explained that he had changed while he was in rehab. Now I cant find him. What changed? Did I lose him? Worse yet, did I lose him to Sione? Gods...if I did maybe I should just leave. That way he'll be happy and I wont have to see him all the time. Im afraid of where I sleep. Im unsure if I should sleep at the apartment next to the Works, the one thats ours, or do I sleep above my garage? If he's still interested I want him to stay that way...If hes not, I dont want to seem desparate. What do I do? Where do I go? Why didnt he just say around after the gathering? Im so damn lost....
Then there's Erik. The handsome sidhe that has stollen my heart. Would Pa like him? I guess he might've. I got this letter that said explained that he had changed while he was in rehab. Now I cant find him. What changed? Did I lose him? Worse yet, did I lose him to Sione? Gods...if I did maybe I should just leave. That way he'll be happy and I wont have to see him all the time. Im afraid of where I sleep. Im unsure if I should sleep at the apartment next to the Works, the one thats ours, or do I sleep above my garage? If he's still interested I want him to stay that way...If hes not, I dont want to seem desparate. What do I do? Where do I go? Why didnt he just say around after the gathering? Im so damn lost....