what is wrong with this world?
What is going on in the world? First the girl was murdered in Auburn and then the girl in Chapel Hill. Both shot. I've been following the one in Auburn, obviously, since I used to go to school there. She was only 18 and a freshman. 18. And now the Westboro Baptist Church are going to picket both of their funerals... I really depise calling it a church because they aren't. I am so open minded, I embrace other religions and other peoples views but COME ON... seriously?! How deranged can you be? What on earth is their reasoning for picketing two young girls funerals who have nothing to do with homosexuality or the war? It makes me so sick. Sick for their families who not only have to bury their daughters but now have to worry about that, I only pray that God makes sure they do not have to see those horrible people on that day.
With all of this stuff going on it makes me miss Bob so much, the past 7 weeks I have been completely fine... I've handled it fine. But now I just want to be able to see him, to be able to hug him and have him make me feel like everything is fine. Even if we fight too much when I see him and his cute smirk and he wraps his arms around me it's like for those few moments everything just melts away, and after that I can put everything into perspective.
Don't get me wrong.. I can do it on my own... just sometimes I.want.bob. What makes it worse is I don't even know if we will be anything when he gets back. He calls me every saturday when he gets liberty but there is no "I miss you" and definately no "I love you" but he calls... right? It has to mean something that he calls every liberty.
I just wish after 2 years we would have a more definitive relationship, I know that it is partly my fault, probably more than partly. But I am ready. I am ready to for what happens...I am sick of wondering. But it's hard to imagine my life without him, honestly I can't imagine a future without him.. don't take that as in I couldnt I just mean, I haven't really thought about it in the past couple of years... it's just always been with Bob in the picture.
Especially now that I have my "career" planned and it's on track, it's like I want the rest of the stuff to fall into place also.
With all of this stuff going on it makes me miss Bob so much, the past 7 weeks I have been completely fine... I've handled it fine. But now I just want to be able to see him, to be able to hug him and have him make me feel like everything is fine. Even if we fight too much when I see him and his cute smirk and he wraps his arms around me it's like for those few moments everything just melts away, and after that I can put everything into perspective.
Don't get me wrong.. I can do it on my own... just sometimes I.want.bob. What makes it worse is I don't even know if we will be anything when he gets back. He calls me every saturday when he gets liberty but there is no "I miss you" and definately no "I love you" but he calls... right? It has to mean something that he calls every liberty.
I just wish after 2 years we would have a more definitive relationship, I know that it is partly my fault, probably more than partly. But I am ready. I am ready to for what happens...I am sick of wondering. But it's hard to imagine my life without him, honestly I can't imagine a future without him.. don't take that as in I couldnt I just mean, I haven't really thought about it in the past couple of years... it's just always been with Bob in the picture.
Especially now that I have my "career" planned and it's on track, it's like I want the rest of the stuff to fall into place also.