Oct 11, 2005 21:06
having a job is cool...owing people money and not being able to spend the money u work such boring pointless hours for isnt as much fun. therefore i spend my nights with money free (or very little money) activities such as hanging out with "jack, johnnie, and occasionally paul". life is wonderful. even when ur stats teacher calls ur house cuz shes a cuntrag.
what will i do tomorrow night? i dont know, maybe work til 930 and then...i still dont know, maybe finally write a college essay. yea, probably not.
its all coming together now, and its scary. i dont want this to end and im such a sap for changing. all this stuff is making me finally get emotional again and i like it i wont lie. i like being able to cry and then laugh about it and then cry again. i just want to crash
...and then u bring me homeee, afraid to find out that you're alone
i dont wanna crash i just like the feeling of knowing i could crash, the possibility. i dont mean like die or anyhting (im not that emo). i mean like, just sit in my room and cry about something completely random, thats amazing. cuz if u think about it ive been emotionless for like 3 years for no reason at all.
BEST BEFORE 9 8 05
im putting off that shower im supposed to be taking right now, ill do it tomorrow..yea, tomorrow is definitely better