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When a year ends, I think it's only human nature to reflect on the past and take stock of the preceding 365 days. I'm no different. Usually, you look back, and notice the ways in which you've changed---and you hope that the changes have been for the better. But that definitely isn’t always the case.
Looking back on this past year, I’m not going to say that it’s been horrible, but I’ve definitely had much better. The worst part about this past year though, is that the reasons it was bad were and are my fault. I don’t like the person that I let myself become this past year. I don’t like it one bit. I’m not even sure where this girl came from…and I have no idea how I got here, to this point. Actually, that’s a lie, I know exactly how I became this person. And I know exactly what I have to do to fix it.
Mostly, I’ve just become really selfish. And I’ve never really been a selfish person, but this past year, that’s what I’ve turned into. I can’t believe some of things I’ve done to other people and how thoughtless I’ve been. I stopped caring. About anything. Anyone. And it hasn’t gotten me anywhere good.
I hate the place I’m at. I hate the person I am. I hate the way I treat other people. So, I’m changing. It’s going to be really hard. And I’m going to need a lot of help. But, I have to do this. And I will do this. I am determined to make 2008 a much better year, and throughout 2008, I’m determined to make a much better Whitley. I will do this.
Gosh, I can’t believe how stupid I’ve been. I couldn’t see all the wonderful things that were staring me right in front of my face. And I have been horrible to all the wonderful people in my life. I have no excuses, but to all of you-one person in particular-I am sorry. I am endlessly sorry from the depths of my being.
Looking back on this past year, I’m not going to say that it’s been horrible, but I’ve definitely had much better. The worst part about this past year though, is that the reasons it was bad were and are my fault. I don’t like the person that I let myself become this past year. I don’t like it one bit. I’m not even sure where this girl came from…and I have no idea how I got here, to this point. Actually, that’s a lie, I know exactly how I became this person. And I know exactly what I have to do to fix it.
Mostly, I’ve just become really selfish. And I’ve never really been a selfish person, but this past year, that’s what I’ve turned into. I can’t believe some of things I’ve done to other people and how thoughtless I’ve been. I stopped caring. About anything. Anyone. And it hasn’t gotten me anywhere good.
I hate the place I’m at. I hate the person I am. I hate the way I treat other people. So, I’m changing. It’s going to be really hard. And I’m going to need a lot of help. But, I have to do this. And I will do this. I am determined to make 2008 a much better year, and throughout 2008, I’m determined to make a much better Whitley. I will do this.
Gosh, I can’t believe how stupid I’ve been. I couldn’t see all the wonderful things that were staring me right in front of my face. And I have been horrible to all the wonderful people in my life. I have no excuses, but to all of you-one person in particular-I am sorry. I am endlessly sorry from the depths of my being.