Not a happy entry
Life has been tough this year, and it seems this semester especially. Looking back on it I have noticed that I have not had one of my signature "all this work is stressing me out" breakdowns. Oh wait. Maybe I did over Spring Break, the one time this semester when all my professors actually assigned a more challenging assignment due on my return. It's odd. While I am hoping that it is just the lack of challenging and though provoking classes that has gotten me into the current slump that I am in, I am not so sure. I have trouble getting out of bed in the morning. I must have hit my alarm at least 5 times today. It's so sad because I feel so lazy, but at the same time I just don't want to get out of bed. I'm really hoping it's due to my first class of the day being physics, which I guess would make almost anyone not want to get up in the morning, but I think it's more. I really hate it here sometimes. I don't feel this way at home. Between this year and last something happened, and I'm not sure how to fix it. I used to look forward to coming back to Whitewater after break or the weekend and I don't anymore. Plus I hate my classes. Except for ESL and the Methods class. That's still four courses of hate, folks. It's not that I am going to fail them either. I'll probably get all As. BUT I'M NOT LEARNING ANYTHING! Those of you who know me really well know that one of my biggest pet peeves is no learning anything, especially when I am paying so much money to do it. Sometimes I worry that all I am going to get out of college is a degree.
So this is the new plan, and hopefully it will at least help with the getting out of bed thing. I'm going to stop setting my alarm for an hour and a half earlier than I need to get up. That way I have to get up on the first time to be on time, and also if I decide to get up before then it is a bonus. On the bright side school is almost over, and getting up for KI at 5am will help set me on a better sleep schedule. Also, with any luck my field study will bring me out of this slump. That's why I am here anyway, to work with kids.
So this is the new plan, and hopefully it will at least help with the getting out of bed thing. I'm going to stop setting my alarm for an hour and a half earlier than I need to get up. That way I have to get up on the first time to be on time, and also if I decide to get up before then it is a bonus. On the bright side school is almost over, and getting up for KI at 5am will help set me on a better sleep schedule. Also, with any luck my field study will bring me out of this slump. That's why I am here anyway, to work with kids.