i used to adore you.
I went to Tallhassee this weekend. I had a good time. its a nice city, i guess. i could see myself living there. aurora said she would be my friend. its hard to believe that in abour eight-nine months, ill be on my own with 1700000 responsibilites. but i am definitely not living on campus, its quite the icky place. but there are tons of places right next to the campus that are allright. i dont think im ready to grow up.
but i am ready to meet a smart but funny guy. thats what a friend of mine said i needed. i agree. boys my age are completely ridiculous. stupid jokes on touchy subjects. im done.
i havent seen my sister in so long. i used to be there every day. its weird, she lives about 3 minutes away and i miss her. i have too much to do. no, i dont have too much to do, i just have too little motivation for what i have to do. so instead of being constructive and getting something done, i am online fucking around.
its what i do best. waste time.
josh and i were supposed to work on our scene today, instead..we watch porn. low budget mexican straight porn. it was kinda gross.
then i realized, im the only one not having sex.
hell, even my friend, who is the last person that i would think of when someone mentioned anything about sex is no longer going to be part of the lonely world that is the v-club. then i tell myself, i says self..if things go as planned (and it is a sad day when these things are planned)then i will no longer be a member in good standing in the club myself. but im not sure the other party is entirely for it. hes been my friend for a long time. and things are usually very comfortable between us. its been a friends with benefits thing from the beginning. and usually situations like that dont work because someone develops feelings for the other one, but so far, in a matter of a good two years or so, things have worked out find. it is a question if it would change things between us, and i really dont think that it will, im actually not being pessimistic about something. hes having trouble with girls and i am eternally having trouble with boys, whether the trouble be that i dont have one or the one i have is retarded r it was just some random thing. it will be okay. i just have to make sure that he thinks the same thing.
its just strange that the afore mentioned friend is doing these things, she is the most unsexual person ever. hell about 6 months ago, she was scared to kiss a boy.
its a crazycrazycrazy world.
now, time to be constructive...el homework.
but i am ready to meet a smart but funny guy. thats what a friend of mine said i needed. i agree. boys my age are completely ridiculous. stupid jokes on touchy subjects. im done.
i havent seen my sister in so long. i used to be there every day. its weird, she lives about 3 minutes away and i miss her. i have too much to do. no, i dont have too much to do, i just have too little motivation for what i have to do. so instead of being constructive and getting something done, i am online fucking around.
its what i do best. waste time.
josh and i were supposed to work on our scene today, instead..we watch porn. low budget mexican straight porn. it was kinda gross.
then i realized, im the only one not having sex.
hell, even my friend, who is the last person that i would think of when someone mentioned anything about sex is no longer going to be part of the lonely world that is the v-club. then i tell myself, i says self..if things go as planned (and it is a sad day when these things are planned)then i will no longer be a member in good standing in the club myself. but im not sure the other party is entirely for it. hes been my friend for a long time. and things are usually very comfortable between us. its been a friends with benefits thing from the beginning. and usually situations like that dont work because someone develops feelings for the other one, but so far, in a matter of a good two years or so, things have worked out find. it is a question if it would change things between us, and i really dont think that it will, im actually not being pessimistic about something. hes having trouble with girls and i am eternally having trouble with boys, whether the trouble be that i dont have one or the one i have is retarded r it was just some random thing. it will be okay. i just have to make sure that he thinks the same thing.
its just strange that the afore mentioned friend is doing these things, she is the most unsexual person ever. hell about 6 months ago, she was scared to kiss a boy.
its a crazycrazycrazy world.
now, time to be constructive...el homework.