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How did everything get so fucked up so quickly? Boyd and I...I guess we broke up...he's with Jared now...dont really wanna go there. All I'm saying is that my hand hurts like a bitch and everyone knows that I beat the hell out of a wall. No idea how everyone knows, but they do.
I've been sober for a couple hours now, went out to dinner with Beecher last night, and I'm leaving for the beach with Ryan today.
One thing that I dont get is that I have so many people around me right now. I've got Beecher, Greenie, Ryan, my little bro, the puppies, but I've never really felt this alone before...not even after last time this happened. I mean, I'm really thankful for all of them for being here for me like this, but I still feel alone...
I'll tell you one thing though, never again. Never fucking again. I cant take it, and I'm not going to deal with it.
I've been sober for a couple hours now, went out to dinner with Beecher last night, and I'm leaving for the beach with Ryan today.
One thing that I dont get is that I have so many people around me right now. I've got Beecher, Greenie, Ryan, my little bro, the puppies, but I've never really felt this alone before...not even after last time this happened. I mean, I'm really thankful for all of them for being here for me like this, but I still feel alone...
I'll tell you one thing though, never again. Never fucking again. I cant take it, and I'm not going to deal with it.