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I can't read.
I mean, I know how. But..I'm not reading, not much this year at all. Like, I think I finished ONE book when I was out on sick leave recovering for surgery, and I haven't finished one since. I've barely started any, even.
Reading is an enormous part of my identity. I always have a book on me. Had. I don't even bother right now.
It hurts. I posted about this once on FB and there was someone (who doesn't know me very well) who didn't seem to get that I don't see this as a positive new change in my life, but as ...something is wrong. I'm really happy with my life right now, I don't have any signs of depression, I just...have no motivation to read. I've read for well over 30 years, voraciously. And I've stopped.
I'm reading Deathless by catvalente out loud to KitKat right now. That's helping, but it is a different thing.
There are books I am interested in, both fiction and non, and yet I pick them up and can't get excited.
And it hurts. Reading HURTS. I don't know why. But it feels painful right now to try and read for pleasure. Even hearing about books that would have excited me a year ago just makes me sad.
But it hurts even more to not try, and to think it might be gone.
I mean, I know how. But..I'm not reading, not much this year at all. Like, I think I finished ONE book when I was out on sick leave recovering for surgery, and I haven't finished one since. I've barely started any, even.
Reading is an enormous part of my identity. I always have a book on me. Had. I don't even bother right now.
It hurts. I posted about this once on FB and there was someone (who doesn't know me very well) who didn't seem to get that I don't see this as a positive new change in my life, but as ...something is wrong. I'm really happy with my life right now, I don't have any signs of depression, I just...have no motivation to read. I've read for well over 30 years, voraciously. And I've stopped.
I'm reading Deathless by catvalente out loud to KitKat right now. That's helping, but it is a different thing.
There are books I am interested in, both fiction and non, and yet I pick them up and can't get excited.
And it hurts. Reading HURTS. I don't know why. But it feels painful right now to try and read for pleasure. Even hearing about books that would have excited me a year ago just makes me sad.
But it hurts even more to not try, and to think it might be gone.