Yes, I Am Four
I don't know what is wrong with me. I should be happy that I have a job (a 12,000 increase from my last job!). I should be happy that I can get an apartment with a pool and fitness center. But I am determined to be in a bad mood. I know what the problem is, and those who know me best will know exactly what I'm talking about, and I just need to deal with it once and for all. It's like the 3 times that Paul prayed and asked God to remove his "thorn in the flesh" and all three times God said "My grace is sufficient for you." Basically, no, is what God said. Which to me is a little annoying, not that God said no, but because I didn't think that God was in the business of fudging over the truth. If He is going to say no, it's better to just get it overwith. It's the waitress in me, I want everything to be made plain. Anyhow, all that to say, I hate to admit it, but I think I am Paul. No, I am Paul. I think God has said no enough times in my life to confirm that.
Contentment is just a major flaw I have I think.
Today, I went to the new teacher in-service for my new job. There were 200 people there--it was so overwhelming. I always thought that friendliness and extrovertness was one of my strong points, but I felt so off my game. I didn't even feel like myself, which is so high school, and the ramifications of that are very, very bad, at best.
Contentment is just a major flaw I have I think.
Today, I went to the new teacher in-service for my new job. There were 200 people there--it was so overwhelming. I always thought that friendliness and extrovertness was one of my strong points, but I felt so off my game. I didn't even feel like myself, which is so high school, and the ramifications of that are very, very bad, at best.