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thw whole time im sitting here thinking... why? why does anything happen? why do people screw up? why do people hurt other people? i dont understand and i dont think i ever will. im so sick and tired of taking crap from people. i cant stop. help me stop. i took chandy's crap just a second ago, when she was trying to tell me that i sounded like i wanted to quit riding horses altogether when all i said was that i was selling my own bc i dont want to have to deal with my own horse anymore, and that i was just going to ride carol's horses and play with my new baby horse thats coming in weeks. bite my ass. thats what i feel like telling everyone right now.
i just registered for school next year. i cant believe it. im going to be a senior. im scared to grow up and go to college. i want to play college golf and i dont know how to get there. i have a golf coach who is helping me with this, and i am a dumbass and still wont get off my butt and work out and practice every day. lovely.
but you know what? im going to talk to God. I love God. He is so amazing. I can sit here and cry and complain all day long, and God is the only one who will truly listen. Thank you God. I love you.
I love God. I love Tabitha. I love Mom. I love Amber. I love Sarah. I love Heather. I love Chandler (although she just pissed me off). I love Elizabeth. I love Laura. I love all of my friends. I love my church (although it is apparent that some people dont want me to be there). o well. I love it anyway. Have a lovely evening.