frustrated
sometimes i don't think i can keep climbing any more. sometimes i fell like i am so damn sick of so many things, and i cannot get a break to save my life. i keep trying to get up this hill of finances, work, and school, and its just too much for me. i can't seem to do it anymore.
i think i'm going to have to find a job that pays more, because i have some debt i have to pay off before i can go to school.
i really really don't want to. I am learning so much at the law firm and I know its good for my future, but I don't see how i can afford to. what good is a resume without a degree? i get paid $7.50/hr to do mountains of work. the scheduling secretary who does less than me get paid more. mandy who does my job gets 10/hr. the firm is very well off, and i just, well they are cheap bastards. even the incompetent runner gets paid $6.50. i am receptionist, i do dicatation, format letters, draft some, file, copy, odd jobs, order stuff, i can't even remember but i know i am busy all the time.
even a receptionist at a hair salon gets paid 8.00. they are short staffed and i don't want to quit, but i don't see how i can ask other people to pick up my mess. i wish everything had been normal, but i guess its really all my fault. but perhaps its my fault for not possessing an adult's knowledge at 18.
maybe i'll just get a second job. i don't mind. i can hack it - i used to work two jobs once....and if i can't go back until the spring, so be it...
i think i'm going to have to find a job that pays more, because i have some debt i have to pay off before i can go to school.
i really really don't want to. I am learning so much at the law firm and I know its good for my future, but I don't see how i can afford to. what good is a resume without a degree? i get paid $7.50/hr to do mountains of work. the scheduling secretary who does less than me get paid more. mandy who does my job gets 10/hr. the firm is very well off, and i just, well they are cheap bastards. even the incompetent runner gets paid $6.50. i am receptionist, i do dicatation, format letters, draft some, file, copy, odd jobs, order stuff, i can't even remember but i know i am busy all the time.
even a receptionist at a hair salon gets paid 8.00. they are short staffed and i don't want to quit, but i don't see how i can ask other people to pick up my mess. i wish everything had been normal, but i guess its really all my fault. but perhaps its my fault for not possessing an adult's knowledge at 18.
maybe i'll just get a second job. i don't mind. i can hack it - i used to work two jobs once....and if i can't go back until the spring, so be it...