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Oh Darcy, Darcy.
Last night was amazing...tonight is anything but. I will spend the whole night, until I pass out from exhaustion, listening to music so that I can forget all of this. I'll fill my head with music notes until I can't think of anything but melody and I speak in lyrics.
I want to stop time so that I don't have to go back to school tomorrow. I hate it.
Today I remebered why I hated it so much. Because I have no friends there.
I spent an entire day and night with beautiful people and tomorrow I will walk into a place with no real people at all, they're all clones. They're all the same. I just want this masquerade to end, I want the masks to come off, I'll watch them fall to the floor one by one until finally I can be sure I'm surrounded by people and not machines. Only then will I smile like I do when my friends are near. Until then I will only divert my eyes to hide my fear.
I guess that I can only hide things for so long. I want to be okay so badly that I've forgotten what I really feel. I just masked everything like usual, now it's back to get me...please don't let it catch me.
bangbang<3
Last night was amazing...tonight is anything but. I will spend the whole night, until I pass out from exhaustion, listening to music so that I can forget all of this. I'll fill my head with music notes until I can't think of anything but melody and I speak in lyrics.
I want to stop time so that I don't have to go back to school tomorrow. I hate it.
Today I remebered why I hated it so much. Because I have no friends there.
I spent an entire day and night with beautiful people and tomorrow I will walk into a place with no real people at all, they're all clones. They're all the same. I just want this masquerade to end, I want the masks to come off, I'll watch them fall to the floor one by one until finally I can be sure I'm surrounded by people and not machines. Only then will I smile like I do when my friends are near. Until then I will only divert my eyes to hide my fear.
I guess that I can only hide things for so long. I want to be okay so badly that I've forgotten what I really feel. I just masked everything like usual, now it's back to get me...please don't let it catch me.
bangbang<3