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I always feel like there is something in my way of getting what i want out of life.
Then i just realize that once again its that stupid "f" word.
FEAR...
I dont know why i let things bother me or get to me so much, but lately my anxiety just goes through the roof!
I finally went out last night. First time in over a week, it felt good i must say.
The same time, I just wanted to reside in my nest and hide behind the pages of George R. R. Martin.
Which wouldnt be a bad thing i guess...It could be worse.
I just wish I would stop letting fear control my life,
who knows..maybe i should start taking that ativan just to help with some of it, because it was working...I just don't want to feel so dependent on it.
I wouldnt have to take it daily or 3 times a day like before.
Perhaps i should just take it when i feel the need.
This insomnia has got to go though!
I dont know where that comes from.
I just feel wide awake.
Blahhh.
back to my book.
Oh yeah. i should be filling out this job app.
whoops!
My middle name should be Procrastination....
=(
lets see if I can do this!
because I am definitely ready for a change!
Wish me luck. ;)
Then i just realize that once again its that stupid "f" word.
FEAR...
I dont know why i let things bother me or get to me so much, but lately my anxiety just goes through the roof!
I finally went out last night. First time in over a week, it felt good i must say.
The same time, I just wanted to reside in my nest and hide behind the pages of George R. R. Martin.
Which wouldnt be a bad thing i guess...It could be worse.
I just wish I would stop letting fear control my life,
who knows..maybe i should start taking that ativan just to help with some of it, because it was working...I just don't want to feel so dependent on it.
I wouldnt have to take it daily or 3 times a day like before.
Perhaps i should just take it when i feel the need.
This insomnia has got to go though!
I dont know where that comes from.
I just feel wide awake.
Blahhh.
back to my book.
Oh yeah. i should be filling out this job app.
whoops!
My middle name should be Procrastination....
=(
lets see if I can do this!
because I am definitely ready for a change!
Wish me luck. ;)