Written January 30th/31st, 2004 - Friday "Night" - 2:30 AM

[empty_feeling]

:Written to my future self, almost exactly 9 months ago:

A Letter to my Future Self

Thick smoke encircles you, clouding your vision. Literally, and Metaphorically.

I am desperately seeking mental clarity, yet I continue my search for it in what is causing  this blurriness.

I am in month 4 of my Downward Spiral - The most suitable phrase to

Comments

[extinctartist]

Hey.. how are you, amy? Are you back from treatment? How did it go?

[empty_feeling]

Hey girl how are you? Treatment went okay...I've been better...lol...but i'm alive. IM me sometime on aol ok? my screen name is Huggableness. xoxo Amy =]

[kirylynn63]

i missed your posts so much! I kept wondering if I should send you a card, but you don't really know me so I didn't know if it would freak you out or something, heh.
<3

[empty_feeling]

Awww thank you...Lol it's okay, if i end up in rehab for a second time, you have to write me k!! rofl. =] xoxo Amy

[bryter]

so things must not be going to well still huh? i wish i could do something to help you, but i don't seem to be very good at making people feel better. i am sorry. but i am sooooooooooooooooooo happy to know you're still here. i knew you went into recovery but still.

[empty_feeling]

Thank you!!!! how are you doing?

[cherrydress23]

i missed you <3

[empty_feeling]

i missed YOU!! I see you had your baby!!! he is sooo cute!!! How are you doing? Is your ED in remission, or how is that going? I hope all is well, talk to you soon. xoxo Amy

[cherrydress23]

i'm back in the swing of things, ed wise, but the baby is good and all that. email or im me anytime. my sn is spaceoctopus616. my email is cherrydress23@yahoo.com.

[rapeofmysoul]

Oh my gosh. After reading this...which almost made me cry...i feel like ur life is mirrored to mine. it just proves that not everybody is born with anorexia. that not everybody is an addict for the high. meth...speed...throwing up....fasting....starving....depression....obsession...that's my life. now i dont really feel as alone. thankyou.

[empty_feeling]

I am so glad that it made you feel less alone - I felt that way, and still do, though not as severely - completely alone in your disease/addiction....Take care of yourself. I'm here if you ever want to talk. xoxo Amy