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so it has been forever and a day sinc i updated last... i just havent had much interest lately i dont know just have been in a real mood that i cant shake... there are obvious reasons why i am sure but tomorrow it will be one month since my world fell apart and i dont know i still miss him a lot. i dont cry as much anymore but i do still cry. its hard coming home from the bar bc i think of him and its hard seeing other couples together bc i think of what we had and its hard being at work with him bc i sometimes feel like i dont know how i am supposed to act... i just dont want to be sad anymore but i dont know how... i want to just find someone new even if he can only make me feel half as good as i did before i really think it would be worth it but then again who wants someone who is soooo damaged?? who knows