Re: Hypocritical
Gee, Jo, make me feel better, why don't you. Suck it up? I though you might care. Guess my first impression was right. My "friends" don't care. Why the hell do I constantly go back to the people who put me down time after time? Because I always give friends another chance. And the sad thing is, I'll probably give you an infinite amount of chances because I believe(d) you were my friend. You've proven, on more than one occasion, that there should be no reason for me to give you another chance. Time after time you hurt me. And yet, I always go back, wanting comfort of "friends". When will I learn?
No shit I'm not the only one alone on V-day. I try not to make a big deal out of it. Its the other people, other "friends" who are making a huge deal. In the "nerd" group, you were pretty much ignored if you weren't dating.
I'm not pissed. I was hurt. Junior high was when I needed love, when things like this mattered a lot to me. Year after year, I'm ignored, and not just on Valentine's Day. Everyday. Want to know why I was so loud, so annoying? So you all would pay attention. When I needed friends, I was left alone.
Don't think so much of yourself Jo, whether or not you realize it, you do make a big deal out of dating in general. Valentine's day, dating, being "in love". You make a huge deal out of it. Maybe you should consider other's feelings, Jo, before you open your mouth. More and more every day I notice the age difference. You're definetely acting like a freshman. Maybe you should consider CARING about someone other than your current boyfriend for once. Maybe you should look beyond your life and finally see how self-absorbed you've been.
I have to post things like these, because no one listens otherwise. Hell, I don't even know if anyone even reads my livejournal. All I know is that this is the place I can rant, and write out exactly what I'm thinking.
Valentine's Day doesn't matter. But all the same, it hurts because it matters to everyone else, and its not like they even remember me on a day to day basis. That's what hurts the most- that the day makes me reflect on every other day I'm ignored- so its not the big V-Day, its every other day I'm forgotten. And why would I even know about an Anti-Valentine's Day party? Its not like they'd remember me long enough to be invited. If I do get invited anywhere, its always last minute because-you're-here type thing. That really makes me want to go!
Its not that I'm alone, its that no one cares except those obligated to. I like being alone, I make very good company for myself. But I can't survive without someone to watch my back.
I'm pissed off now, Jo. You could have been somewhat understanding. Then again, why should you be? I've only been understanding to you, why should I expect the same?
No shit I'm not the only one alone on V-day. I try not to make a big deal out of it. Its the other people, other "friends" who are making a huge deal. In the "nerd" group, you were pretty much ignored if you weren't dating.
I'm not pissed. I was hurt. Junior high was when I needed love, when things like this mattered a lot to me. Year after year, I'm ignored, and not just on Valentine's Day. Everyday. Want to know why I was so loud, so annoying? So you all would pay attention. When I needed friends, I was left alone.
Don't think so much of yourself Jo, whether or not you realize it, you do make a big deal out of dating in general. Valentine's day, dating, being "in love". You make a huge deal out of it. Maybe you should consider other's feelings, Jo, before you open your mouth. More and more every day I notice the age difference. You're definetely acting like a freshman. Maybe you should consider CARING about someone other than your current boyfriend for once. Maybe you should look beyond your life and finally see how self-absorbed you've been.
I have to post things like these, because no one listens otherwise. Hell, I don't even know if anyone even reads my livejournal. All I know is that this is the place I can rant, and write out exactly what I'm thinking.
Valentine's Day doesn't matter. But all the same, it hurts because it matters to everyone else, and its not like they even remember me on a day to day basis. That's what hurts the most- that the day makes me reflect on every other day I'm ignored- so its not the big V-Day, its every other day I'm forgotten. And why would I even know about an Anti-Valentine's Day party? Its not like they'd remember me long enough to be invited. If I do get invited anywhere, its always last minute because-you're-here type thing. That really makes me want to go!
Its not that I'm alone, its that no one cares except those obligated to. I like being alone, I make very good company for myself. But I can't survive without someone to watch my back.
I'm pissed off now, Jo. You could have been somewhat understanding. Then again, why should you be? I've only been understanding to you, why should I expect the same?