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A few new things to write about. Dr. Page thinks that I'm not going to be able to ascend out of my depression on my own in a speedy manner. I agree. So he's told me that I need to find a psychiatrist and see what they can prescribe me to help get me motivated and be able to go out and become happy and less depressed. It's an odd feeling I have. It's not like idea of depression we see in movies or TV. I would describe it like a wave, I go up and down, but not very high up. Dr. Page says I have a vulnerability to depression due to family history and my own sense of Grandiosity. Another thing he thinks plays a large role in what direction my depression goes in is social relationships. Which Ironically I wouldn't think would be so important, but looking back I see that I really lack any "real" human contact. Sure I see people, I speak to some, but it's not enjoyable conversation it's not with friends, conversations with family is strained and I lack a girl to speak to, or as Dr. Page and I call it, female companionship. I was going to go on and type why I thought it wasn't so "vain" or "immature" to do, but It would just turn in to a ramble, and I fear that constant mentioning of the fact, will only serve to undermine the seriousness of my posts and simply turn them in to Personal Ads, which I do not want them to become, although I acknowledge the fact that it's entirely possible that someone may read this and by simply seeing the way I think and my humor and personal views come to find me attractive in the sense that my personality seems to be fitting to theirs.
So to sum up...
I'm going to take anti-depressents soon.
And I ramble in these posts.
So to sum up...
I'm going to take anti-depressents soon.
And I ramble in these posts.