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hey all i hate being in pain it sucks so much. i did pretty much nothing this weekend cus of the pain. last night i went out with matt and paul and smoked but i couldnt handle it. so i had to go home so early. i was kinda upset but i didnt want to be there anymore i wanted to lay down. but then i get home to do that to find out i cant. what the fuck. then it moved onto my jaw and that kills and then it gave me a headache and all i want to do it be normal again. and to top it off my family life isnt so swell. nothing bad between fighting and shit its just people arent up to the proper health requirments and wow im complaingin alot in here. so here is some more.
ive been thinking about my grandma alot and how much i miss her. and when we went to pa with my friends i couldnt help but think of her in like everything we did. i wish she was still alive and yesterday my mom ask me how i was doing and all i could say was fine. i mean what can i say. i lost someone i loved with all my heart and i dont know what to think. i didnt even get to say goodbye and she was supposed to come up that weekend too and that hurt. i almost felt betrayed that this happened.
on a lighter note. today im going to hang out with matt and we are going to watch movies and eat popcorn all day. well that is the plan. im going to get ready now so i can meet up with him. he has been so great while my life has sucked. i can tell there are sometimes when i can be a bitch because i dont want to do anything but think and to just be dull. and then i can be a pain sometimes because i dont feel well and my body sucks so it doesnt like to play good. i wish i could give him the world. but i can only give him all the love i have for him. and i make sure i do that as much as possible. i dont think i can even fathom a life without him. he makes me feel amazing. so here is a picture of us fooling around.
hope my day goes good. and to all those going to warped tour have fun its amazing show this year!