If you just let go, if you let your heart go...
You think you know Me. You think you understand Me.
It's sad. I always thought you did.
But you've never understood what I was like. And you'll never understand the person outside of who am.
Hence COMPLICATED Right?!
I didn't have to care about you. You didn't have to care about Me.
But we did anyways didn't we?
And now you get mad of what's in that entry.
If I told you I didn't wanna go to Summer League...You would've yelled WHY? And then go on saying how the four of us never spend anytime together and that I'm not really helping the situation.
I go with the excuses because most of the time they're fucking true, rather you'd like to believe them or not. And then the other times I just don't wanna get you pissed. But I guess either way, straight up with you or not. You Get Pissed.
And I'm sorry for saying what I think in Chemistry, and every other place and then making you and Juday feel bad.
And I'm sorry for getting hit for begging to go to your birthday with the only thing I had to give to you. I guess I could've grabbed an envelope.
And I'm sorry I arrived late at your party too. I guess your parents are less strict than mine right? But you just don't get that huh?
And I'm sorry you went through all that trouble to surprise Me with a cake.
It's too bad you'll never know how much that day meant to Me.
Oh..and I'm sorry about the Tanning Competition. It's over, you win.
Okay..so that's over and done with. Now why don't we just all say it.
I'M THE FUCKING BAD GUY HERE.
Can't even fucking say anything back to this but apologize..
'Cause that's all I ever do right?
Yeah, get mad at Me for this reason too.
'Cause it's obvious everything you fucking do or say doesn't count for shit.
Harsh?
Maybe this is how I'm feeling at the moment.
-Taken from Sandy's Xanga (unedited, smileys do not transfer during copy and paste)
If you had told me you didn't want to go to Summer League, I would have said "Aw, how come?" and then I wouldn't have wasted my time trying to find out if you could make it or not. If you didn't know anything about me, the one thing you'd know is that I hate when people beat around the bush. Lying gets people no where, truth is where it's at. Honesty has always been the best policy with me. And it wasn't only me who wanted to use the summer league as a means for all four of us to see each other again.
I'm sorry your family is much more strict than mine. You know you could have muttered a sorry and it wouldn't have bothered me at all. I would've forgot and didn't care. And if you had told me how much of a struggle it was for you to make it, I would have hugged you and told you that you didn't have to come and all you had to do was explain just a little bit to me about why you couldn't make it. I'm sorry I don't understand what you're going through because my parents were never that strict with me and they never hit me. The only people who ever hit me were my sisters, and I hit them back, hard.
And you're not the only one apologizing all the time. I apologize for my short temper and that things set me off so easily because you guys don't give me the full backstory. If you had said any of this to me, just once, do you think I'd have been mad? Not one bit. I would have been sympathetic and right by your side trying to make things better. I'm glad you trusted me with that information, it's a little too much, a little too late right now. And honestly I don't know what to think. I'm still fuming and being as angry as I was yesterday, it'll take some time for me to process all this.
And you know it hurts when someone insults your appearance. Just think of the time Judee said that she thought you gained weight. Compare that to me saying that Juday, Judee, and Sunny could all be models, but you, on the other hand, could never be a model. That would hurt, what you said to me hurts, even if what you said was the truth, it couldn't have been any more blunt.
It's sad. I always thought you did.
But you've never understood what I was like. And you'll never understand the person outside of who am.
Hence COMPLICATED Right?!
I didn't have to care about you. You didn't have to care about Me.
But we did anyways didn't we?
And now you get mad of what's in that entry.
If I told you I didn't wanna go to Summer League...You would've yelled WHY? And then go on saying how the four of us never spend anytime together and that I'm not really helping the situation.
I go with the excuses because most of the time they're fucking true, rather you'd like to believe them or not. And then the other times I just don't wanna get you pissed. But I guess either way, straight up with you or not. You Get Pissed.
And I'm sorry for saying what I think in Chemistry, and every other place and then making you and Juday feel bad.
And I'm sorry for getting hit for begging to go to your birthday with the only thing I had to give to you. I guess I could've grabbed an envelope.
And I'm sorry I arrived late at your party too. I guess your parents are less strict than mine right? But you just don't get that huh?
And I'm sorry you went through all that trouble to surprise Me with a cake.
It's too bad you'll never know how much that day meant to Me.
Oh..and I'm sorry about the Tanning Competition. It's over, you win.
Okay..so that's over and done with. Now why don't we just all say it.
I'M THE FUCKING BAD GUY HERE.
Can't even fucking say anything back to this but apologize..
'Cause that's all I ever do right?
Yeah, get mad at Me for this reason too.
'Cause it's obvious everything you fucking do or say doesn't count for shit.
Harsh?
Maybe this is how I'm feeling at the moment.
-Taken from Sandy's Xanga (unedited, smileys do not transfer during copy and paste)
If you had told me you didn't want to go to Summer League, I would have said "Aw, how come?" and then I wouldn't have wasted my time trying to find out if you could make it or not. If you didn't know anything about me, the one thing you'd know is that I hate when people beat around the bush. Lying gets people no where, truth is where it's at. Honesty has always been the best policy with me. And it wasn't only me who wanted to use the summer league as a means for all four of us to see each other again.
I'm sorry your family is much more strict than mine. You know you could have muttered a sorry and it wouldn't have bothered me at all. I would've forgot and didn't care. And if you had told me how much of a struggle it was for you to make it, I would have hugged you and told you that you didn't have to come and all you had to do was explain just a little bit to me about why you couldn't make it. I'm sorry I don't understand what you're going through because my parents were never that strict with me and they never hit me. The only people who ever hit me were my sisters, and I hit them back, hard.
And you're not the only one apologizing all the time. I apologize for my short temper and that things set me off so easily because you guys don't give me the full backstory. If you had said any of this to me, just once, do you think I'd have been mad? Not one bit. I would have been sympathetic and right by your side trying to make things better. I'm glad you trusted me with that information, it's a little too much, a little too late right now. And honestly I don't know what to think. I'm still fuming and being as angry as I was yesterday, it'll take some time for me to process all this.
And you know it hurts when someone insults your appearance. Just think of the time Judee said that she thought you gained weight. Compare that to me saying that Juday, Judee, and Sunny could all be models, but you, on the other hand, could never be a model. That would hurt, what you said to me hurts, even if what you said was the truth, it couldn't have been any more blunt.