We hold it all together, as I step back in envy...
The way my life is going I haven't had time to update in about a month. I really love how this summer's going. I have great friends that I didn't really have before (Beth and Ana and Natlia and Erin =] ). So this summer I'm out a lot just like last year's. But now I have a legal job! I'm a hostess at Scrambler's and I like almost all the people I work with. As it was a long time I'm coming I'm definitely losing touch with Judy, Sunny, and Sandy. I'm pretty sure today was a prime example.
Well, what can I say? I actually have a job and go out and make plans. It's really hard for them to leave the house to even hang out with me half the time, anyways. I feel bad and I feel like I'm leaving them behind but I definitely tried to make an effort to meet them to play tennis or see them before I go on my cruise (in two weeks) but the effort has not been reciprocated in any way. I'm busy now, I like being busy. I'm sorry that you guys aren't busy all the time but whenever I try to make time for you guys, you guys don't want to hang out with me. I'm sorry I'm such a bitch.
So we have a summer tennis league. Funmi called me to tell me about it. I got the message to everyone that it was supposed to be today at 1:30. It was today at 1:30. I called everyone at 12:30ish. Sunny wasn't home, Judy was game, and Sandy was like "...Okay." I called Sandy back to tell her that Sunny wasn't home because they'd just hop a ride together since they live right next to each other. She was like, "My mom left to bring my brother to a doctor's appointment." I'm sitting there groaning and then she proceeds to tell me I didn't tell her what time. I specifically remember saying "By 12:45 or 1:00 at the latest to the high school." WHATEVER. So I just leave, pick Judy up and get to the high school. I get there and call her again. She tells me that "I can't leave my little brother home alone." He's 12 or 13. I mean, thanks for mentioning that around the time of the FIRST PHONE CALL!!! I told her she could drop him off at her cousins and I got pissed because something so simple like COMING TO THE HIGH SCHOOL got so COMPLICATED. I was like "Whatever. This is gay. You're gay. I hate you." and hung up on her. I know, I know. It was a rash choice of words but you don't understand how incredibly PISSED OFF I am. Because while that was happening, Sunny called me back and said she was on her way. 20 minutes later, she's not there. I make Judy call her back because at this point I'm not talking to anyone on the phone. She tells us she haven't left and I can tell Funmi's getting a little aggrivated so we tell her we were gonna pick her up. We drive to her house and call her to tell her to come outside. She's not there. When we're leaving and halfway across the city she calls us back. She tells us taht she went to her cousin Kelly's house to pick up her racquets and to just leave without her. I didn't know what to tell her, we were already like a half hour late. We were basically waiting for about 30-40 minutes because by the time we got there it was like 2:15. And from then on it was just pointless.
So basically I am mad at Sandy because it was just so COMPLICATED. If she didn't want to go she could've just SAID SO in the first place. You know, it's not that hard to just say "Nita, I don't really want to go." and then NOT GO. Instead of making up stupid excuses the whole time. This has been a long time coming. I don't care if she's mad at me, too. I'm so pissed at her. She plays favorites and makes me feel REALLY bad. I remember in chem class she once said that Sunny could be a model but I, on the other hand couldn't. For my birthday party, she showed up way late and didn't even bother to put her gift in an envelope or pick up a card. I'm trying to light my cake and she hands me money and I'm pretty annoyed. I don't care that I should be grateful for a gift. She didn't even put it in an envelope. A fucking envelope could've sufficed. I FUCKING SURPRISED HER WITH A CAKE AND A PRESENT. THANKS A FUCKING LOT, SANDY! She plays favorites with Sunny. I don't care what she says, she does and it makes me and Judy feel bad because she inadvertently says somethin really nice about Sunny at the same time putting us (or at least me) down. Especially when she surprised Sunny with a birthday cake. She couldn't even have the decency to put my present in an envelope or even come on time or even give me a card. Or even apologize for coming late or give me a reason as to why she was late. Like it was just acceptable to come late when it was a shitty party anyway and I wanted to go home, except I was at home. I wouldn't even have minded all of that if she had at least apologized once. Yeah, it sounds like jealousy, it probably is but considering the fact that she compliments while putting down is pretty bad. I'm so glad I have better friends who don't do that shit to me. I'm still pretty fucking pissed. I don't care. I said hurtful things and I probably meant them at that moment. It's really been a long time coming and I don't want to hold it in anymore. And ALSO, WHAT'S UP WITH TRYING TO COMPETE WITH ME AS TO WHO'S TANNER??? I DON'T GIVE A SHIT HOW TAN YOU ARE. STOP TELLING ME THAT YOU HAVE WICKED BAD TAN LINES!!! I HAVE BAD TAN LINES AND I DON'T WANT THEM! You think they're a prize?!? WELL TAKE MY FUCKING TAN LINES. I don't want to be dark! I fucking wear sun block all the time, so STOP TELLING ME ABOUT HOW TAN YOU ARE. GOD.
And of course, no one can see Sandy in a bad light. Since she's so nice to everyone she can do no wrong. And I am the bad person, no one will believe that Sandy could have ever wronged me.
If you read all of this, have a cookie.
Well, what can I say? I actually have a job and go out and make plans. It's really hard for them to leave the house to even hang out with me half the time, anyways. I feel bad and I feel like I'm leaving them behind but I definitely tried to make an effort to meet them to play tennis or see them before I go on my cruise (in two weeks) but the effort has not been reciprocated in any way. I'm busy now, I like being busy. I'm sorry that you guys aren't busy all the time but whenever I try to make time for you guys, you guys don't want to hang out with me. I'm sorry I'm such a bitch.
So we have a summer tennis league. Funmi called me to tell me about it. I got the message to everyone that it was supposed to be today at 1:30. It was today at 1:30. I called everyone at 12:30ish. Sunny wasn't home, Judy was game, and Sandy was like "...Okay." I called Sandy back to tell her that Sunny wasn't home because they'd just hop a ride together since they live right next to each other. She was like, "My mom left to bring my brother to a doctor's appointment." I'm sitting there groaning and then she proceeds to tell me I didn't tell her what time. I specifically remember saying "By 12:45 or 1:00 at the latest to the high school." WHATEVER. So I just leave, pick Judy up and get to the high school. I get there and call her again. She tells me that "I can't leave my little brother home alone." He's 12 or 13. I mean, thanks for mentioning that around the time of the FIRST PHONE CALL!!! I told her she could drop him off at her cousins and I got pissed because something so simple like COMING TO THE HIGH SCHOOL got so COMPLICATED. I was like "Whatever. This is gay. You're gay. I hate you." and hung up on her. I know, I know. It was a rash choice of words but you don't understand how incredibly PISSED OFF I am. Because while that was happening, Sunny called me back and said she was on her way. 20 minutes later, she's not there. I make Judy call her back because at this point I'm not talking to anyone on the phone. She tells us she haven't left and I can tell Funmi's getting a little aggrivated so we tell her we were gonna pick her up. We drive to her house and call her to tell her to come outside. She's not there. When we're leaving and halfway across the city she calls us back. She tells us taht she went to her cousin Kelly's house to pick up her racquets and to just leave without her. I didn't know what to tell her, we were already like a half hour late. We were basically waiting for about 30-40 minutes because by the time we got there it was like 2:15. And from then on it was just pointless.
So basically I am mad at Sandy because it was just so COMPLICATED. If she didn't want to go she could've just SAID SO in the first place. You know, it's not that hard to just say "Nita, I don't really want to go." and then NOT GO. Instead of making up stupid excuses the whole time. This has been a long time coming. I don't care if she's mad at me, too. I'm so pissed at her. She plays favorites and makes me feel REALLY bad. I remember in chem class she once said that Sunny could be a model but I, on the other hand couldn't. For my birthday party, she showed up way late and didn't even bother to put her gift in an envelope or pick up a card. I'm trying to light my cake and she hands me money and I'm pretty annoyed. I don't care that I should be grateful for a gift. She didn't even put it in an envelope. A fucking envelope could've sufficed. I FUCKING SURPRISED HER WITH A CAKE AND A PRESENT. THANKS A FUCKING LOT, SANDY! She plays favorites with Sunny. I don't care what she says, she does and it makes me and Judy feel bad because she inadvertently says somethin really nice about Sunny at the same time putting us (or at least me) down. Especially when she surprised Sunny with a birthday cake. She couldn't even have the decency to put my present in an envelope or even come on time or even give me a card. Or even apologize for coming late or give me a reason as to why she was late. Like it was just acceptable to come late when it was a shitty party anyway and I wanted to go home, except I was at home. I wouldn't even have minded all of that if she had at least apologized once. Yeah, it sounds like jealousy, it probably is but considering the fact that she compliments while putting down is pretty bad. I'm so glad I have better friends who don't do that shit to me. I'm still pretty fucking pissed. I don't care. I said hurtful things and I probably meant them at that moment. It's really been a long time coming and I don't want to hold it in anymore. And ALSO, WHAT'S UP WITH TRYING TO COMPETE WITH ME AS TO WHO'S TANNER??? I DON'T GIVE A SHIT HOW TAN YOU ARE. STOP TELLING ME THAT YOU HAVE WICKED BAD TAN LINES!!! I HAVE BAD TAN LINES AND I DON'T WANT THEM! You think they're a prize?!? WELL TAKE MY FUCKING TAN LINES. I don't want to be dark! I fucking wear sun block all the time, so STOP TELLING ME ABOUT HOW TAN YOU ARE. GOD.
And of course, no one can see Sandy in a bad light. Since she's so nice to everyone she can do no wrong. And I am the bad person, no one will believe that Sandy could have ever wronged me.
If you read all of this, have a cookie.