it all makes sense now
i finally understand why suddenly i want to drive a stick shift...and why today at work i covered my baked beans in pure habanera pepper powder and tried to eat as much as i could without drinking water...and why suddenly i want to be employed at as many places as possible at once...
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...because i'm fucking bored...
i need excitement...i need a challenge in my life...work is so fucking easy...i don't feel like i accomplish anything special at that place...i mean i have my bosses constantly going on and on and on and on and on...and on and on...and on...and on and on and on...and on...about how wonderful i am and what an amazing employee i am and i'm the best they've ever seen and blah blah blah blah BLAH!
...and it's not that i don't appreciate the compliments...although i will be the first to admit that i HATE, when people shower me with praise...especially in said situation which will be elaborated on momentarily...
but the stuff i do there is so...mediocre...i mean it's just a couple of testimonial and product spots...and they just go off on how amazing it is that i finished them so quickly and how good they look and sound and all this gobbily gook ass-kissing bullshit...apparently to them and those not as experienced in filmmaking as others it's fucking magic, but to someone trained in this business, it would be categorized under "nothing special"...which does not deserve constant fawning...all that does is make me more of an arrogant diva than i already am...and we really, really don't need that...
so i guess i'm searching for something to challenge me...to actually make me have to stop and think about something...to make me sweat it a little...and since i do not own a stick shift and i am currently waiting for my resume to get around, i take solace in lousiana hot sauce and habanera pepper powder...just utilizing available resources...
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...because i'm fucking bored...
i need excitement...i need a challenge in my life...work is so fucking easy...i don't feel like i accomplish anything special at that place...i mean i have my bosses constantly going on and on and on and on and on...and on and on...and on...and on and on and on...and on...about how wonderful i am and what an amazing employee i am and i'm the best they've ever seen and blah blah blah blah BLAH!
...and it's not that i don't appreciate the compliments...although i will be the first to admit that i HATE, when people shower me with praise...especially in said situation which will be elaborated on momentarily...
but the stuff i do there is so...mediocre...i mean it's just a couple of testimonial and product spots...and they just go off on how amazing it is that i finished them so quickly and how good they look and sound and all this gobbily gook ass-kissing bullshit...apparently to them and those not as experienced in filmmaking as others it's fucking magic, but to someone trained in this business, it would be categorized under "nothing special"...which does not deserve constant fawning...all that does is make me more of an arrogant diva than i already am...and we really, really don't need that...
so i guess i'm searching for something to challenge me...to actually make me have to stop and think about something...to make me sweat it a little...and since i do not own a stick shift and i am currently waiting for my resume to get around, i take solace in lousiana hot sauce and habanera pepper powder...just utilizing available resources...