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So I'm in this really weird mood where everything just feels weird and wrong... its freaking me out. I'm scared for college. I'm scared to be alone. I'm scared because I know I'm losing the person who I love. I'm in love with C, we were in love, and I can tell he falls more and more out of love with me every day. Thats the worst feeling in the world.
Last night we got into a fight... I called him while he was basically asleep and he answered. He told me he was sorry. He said I should leave him because he doesn't deserve me. He says he's lost and doesn't know who he is anymore. He said he lies, and he steals from his friends. He says he always hurts me and he doesn't know why. I don't want to leave him though... I care about him too much. What if he never finds himself? It's not like I can find him for him... I know he has to do it himself... but I just can't distance myself. If he loves me, how can he hurt me? Why can't he just think about things before he does them... I'm so confused... I feel like I'm destined to be alone and sad for my whole life.
Last night we got into a fight... I called him while he was basically asleep and he answered. He told me he was sorry. He said I should leave him because he doesn't deserve me. He says he's lost and doesn't know who he is anymore. He said he lies, and he steals from his friends. He says he always hurts me and he doesn't know why. I don't want to leave him though... I care about him too much. What if he never finds himself? It's not like I can find him for him... I know he has to do it himself... but I just can't distance myself. If he loves me, how can he hurt me? Why can't he just think about things before he does them... I'm so confused... I feel like I'm destined to be alone and sad for my whole life.