And so it starts.
I really didn't know how I would feel when I happened but it's getting close. To be honest, I hadn't been thinking about it a lot. I've truly been happy. In the beginning, talking to Kayla probably saved my life. There were so many nights with me laying in bed replaying everything in my mind and just being lonely and wanting to die and she was there for me to talk to. And she's been there all along, listening to me vent and helping me get through things. I still talk to her almost daily. Lately I've been talking to Kacye and they've been different talks all together. I don't know where it will go or even if I want it to go anywhere but I'm enjoying it.
Things had been going a lot better with Sarah. We were more than civil. We were actually being friendly. I talk to her parents and helped them out with their new van. We went to eat on Sunday and she found out. She deleted me from Snapchat. That was how I kept up with Jacob when he's there. She also won't let me have him this weekend as planned. It's not my weekend but she was going to let me have him. I didn't understand why it was such a big deal. Kayla explained it to me. She's like that's her parents, she probably feel betrayed by them because they're her parents. I'm like yeah, but they're my child's grandparents so I don't understand. We should get a long. She's like yeah, but you're not supposed to go out drinking and having fun. She probably had her feelings hurt by it. She made some good points. I'm sorry
So like I said, things are going to get difficult the next few months. St. Patrick's Day was the last time we went out before the break up and is around the time when things started getting bad. And now we have all this stuff coming up. The days she was "out helping a friend cope with being cheated on", and the break up and the fights and arguments. The anniversaries of the first time week hooked up, and the first date, and me moving out and the first time we said we loved each other. It's going to be really tough. But I have Kayla, and now Kacye so I'll be fine. And Jacob brings me more joy than anything in the world. I love him more than anything.
Things had been going a lot better with Sarah. We were more than civil. We were actually being friendly. I talk to her parents and helped them out with their new van. We went to eat on Sunday and she found out. She deleted me from Snapchat. That was how I kept up with Jacob when he's there. She also won't let me have him this weekend as planned. It's not my weekend but she was going to let me have him. I didn't understand why it was such a big deal. Kayla explained it to me. She's like that's her parents, she probably feel betrayed by them because they're her parents. I'm like yeah, but they're my child's grandparents so I don't understand. We should get a long. She's like yeah, but you're not supposed to go out drinking and having fun. She probably had her feelings hurt by it. She made some good points. I'm sorry
So like I said, things are going to get difficult the next few months. St. Patrick's Day was the last time we went out before the break up and is around the time when things started getting bad. And now we have all this stuff coming up. The days she was "out helping a friend cope with being cheated on", and the break up and the fights and arguments. The anniversaries of the first time week hooked up, and the first date, and me moving out and the first time we said we loved each other. It's going to be really tough. But I have Kayla, and now Kacye so I'll be fine. And Jacob brings me more joy than anything in the world. I love him more than anything.