It Can Only Get Better
Today has already been horrible and it's not even lunch yet. It took me forever to get to work. It was raining and people were driving stupid. I had stopped at the store and got some liquid eggs. Get to work, go grab my sausage out of the freezer. I'm out. Damn. At least I have eggs. Nope. Someone had opened the eggs and put them on the shelf. No breakfast. Had two lube techs call in so we were behind on oil changes, then the computer crashes. Everything is up and running now so I guess we are good.
Jacob was sick so Saturday wasn't great. He stayed on my lap most of the day which is fine. He slept a lot as well. Yesterday he was great. Be ate and he actually played with me. We wrestled, we built legos, we played with the Nerf guns. I dropped him off and had lunch then went home. It is such a sad and lonely drive back. I'm seriously about to cry right now. But I'm by myself and I start to think about things. Braydens eighth grade night was Saturday. I would've loved to go to that. I noticed he deleted me from PlayStation. He hasn't texted me in a couple of months either. I want to text him to see how soccer is going and how he's doing but I don't want to get him in trouble. I always think about Lucas. He was my dude. I wonder if he's getting any better or doing worse. I miss them both so much. I have to stop posting at work. I'm seriously sitting at my desk crying.
I haven't to her in a couple of days. I think she is mad at me. We were supposed to go out Saturday, but then I realized I could get Jacob so I did that instead. She talked to me a little Friday night and a little on Saturday. I sent her a message Saturday night but she didn't answer. I'm usually the one who starts the conversation. I'm not going to anymore. I don't have time to deal with this. I'm trying to get healthy and out of debt so I can move back to Northern Kentucky. The sooner the better. I want to be closer to Jacob to where I can see him more.
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Jacob was sick so Saturday wasn't great. He stayed on my lap most of the day which is fine. He slept a lot as well. Yesterday he was great. Be ate and he actually played with me. We wrestled, we built legos, we played with the Nerf guns. I dropped him off and had lunch then went home. It is such a sad and lonely drive back. I'm seriously about to cry right now. But I'm by myself and I start to think about things. Braydens eighth grade night was Saturday. I would've loved to go to that. I noticed he deleted me from PlayStation. He hasn't texted me in a couple of months either. I want to text him to see how soccer is going and how he's doing but I don't want to get him in trouble. I always think about Lucas. He was my dude. I wonder if he's getting any better or doing worse. I miss them both so much. I have to stop posting at work. I'm seriously sitting at my desk crying.
I haven't to her in a couple of days. I think she is mad at me. We were supposed to go out Saturday, but then I realized I could get Jacob so I did that instead. She talked to me a little Friday night and a little on Saturday. I sent her a message Saturday night but she didn't answer. I'm usually the one who starts the conversation. I'm not going to anymore. I don't have time to deal with this. I'm trying to get healthy and out of debt so I can move back to Northern Kentucky. The sooner the better. I want to be closer to Jacob to where I can see him more.
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