"Love is giving your heart to someone, and trusting them to not break it."
You know, everyone's been thinking lately..And it's gotten me started.
I dont really know what I'm thinking about, more of just like, everything. Life, love, emotions.
I try to wrap myself up in WoW or Josh, or something. But I dunno. I cant do that forever. Josh started school last week, and it's going to be hell. I'm only going to see him once or twice a week. It's going to be really hard on me, not to mention him. I'm just really .. worried about him, I guess. I cant stop crying and I dont know why. I just think about the future, and all I see is him. But, I dont know that it's gunna turn out that way. It's hard, because I dont have all that trust in him anymore. I mean, he completely shattered me, twice. And after the first time, he promised me it would never happen again, but it did. And the second time was worse. I just sit there and look at him and I see forever in his eyes. I see myself, my life, my future, my everything in him. I've been thinking about it a lot..The fact that I wont see him, and that things between us might end up...growing apart. I keep crying around him, because it just hits me like, instantly. On Friday, he was at school, and came over to see me before he had work, but I wasnt home. And as soon as I got home, he got up and hugged me. And we were talking, and he just, floored me. He looked me right in the eye and told me "You're all I could think about today." I just want to live, in that moment forever.
I dunno. I guess I'm just worrying.
My grandparents think I need professional help.
My cousins are driving me up a wall.
My parents are mad at me. (Yeah, I know..Whats new?)
Gah. But everything's really alright with me. Hung out with everyone this weekend, which def was fun.
And I'll probably jump on WoW now, and try to level up. lol
Peace.
I dont really know what I'm thinking about, more of just like, everything. Life, love, emotions.
I try to wrap myself up in WoW or Josh, or something. But I dunno. I cant do that forever. Josh started school last week, and it's going to be hell. I'm only going to see him once or twice a week. It's going to be really hard on me, not to mention him. I'm just really .. worried about him, I guess. I cant stop crying and I dont know why. I just think about the future, and all I see is him. But, I dont know that it's gunna turn out that way. It's hard, because I dont have all that trust in him anymore. I mean, he completely shattered me, twice. And after the first time, he promised me it would never happen again, but it did. And the second time was worse. I just sit there and look at him and I see forever in his eyes. I see myself, my life, my future, my everything in him. I've been thinking about it a lot..The fact that I wont see him, and that things between us might end up...growing apart. I keep crying around him, because it just hits me like, instantly. On Friday, he was at school, and came over to see me before he had work, but I wasnt home. And as soon as I got home, he got up and hugged me. And we were talking, and he just, floored me. He looked me right in the eye and told me "You're all I could think about today." I just want to live, in that moment forever.
I dunno. I guess I'm just worrying.
My grandparents think I need professional help.
My cousins are driving me up a wall.
My parents are mad at me. (Yeah, I know..Whats new?)
Gah. But everything's really alright with me. Hung out with everyone this weekend, which def was fun.
And I'll probably jump on WoW now, and try to level up. lol
Peace.