Its like a needle to the vein
Im referring to an unfamiliar feeling. You get it from your family or your friends. Its called love. I havent had many friends in my life and no family to give me that feeling of belonging. I met someone who could give me that thing ive never felt before. Today was her birthday. so i went to her house today and we went to pf changs and had chinese food. that place is good man. then we came back to her house and had her special birthday dinner. It takes her mom 4 hours to cook and it was pretty good. in between meals me and cassie decided to watch a couple movies. She mad a comment about a mark on my neck. she even went as far as to say she suspected it was a hicky. That kind of hurt cuz i know for a fact that it wasnt a hicky cuz i dont let people give me hickies first of all. second of all i wouldnt cheat on her because i dont wanna lose that unattainable feeling that for some reason ive obtained. The reason for this mark is that necklace that im always wearing from pacsun. when i sleep in the same position for a long time the metal clasp part makes an imprint on my neck. If i sleep in the same position for 9 hours as i did last night that mark might linger for a few days. I know it sounds far fetched but its true. i know this because it happens a lot. People at my work are always commenting on all of my "hickies".it also was the cause for a nasty scratch obtained at ozzfest. I told cassie all of this but she refused to believe me. she didnt make much of a big deal about it which im grateful for but it still bothers me that she didnt believe me. oh well i guess ill be alright. i decided to break that necklace that way we can never have that problem ever again. although i loved that necklace and it was my only piece of jewelry, i feel its more important that i dont have any more of those necklace hickies so cassie doesnt have to think that im cheating on her. I just wish i could make her believe that i would never do anything to hurt her. I just hope we can stay together forever. yea noone has ever heard me say something like that. but ive also never felt that way. ive never been with a girl and said to myself, "i wouldnt mind being with her for the rest of my life". well i can say that now. yea im sure most people have probably already stopped reading this cuz its long and boring. but if u stopped reading then fuck you!