Life is funny
Well...I guess that's it then. Three days ago, a man I faught to love, just ditched me. Flat out fuckin' dropped me because He just couldn't deal with it. He wanted to be alone, he didn't want to talk to anyone.
I'm not stupid.
I know he's been talking to him...listening to every little word he's saying and while he completely ignored me. That's fine. Just peachy.
I'm dealing with it.
I'm dealing with the fact that he doesn't want me anymore.
I'm dealing with the fact that he chose a friend over me.
I'm dealing with the fact that I'm never going to let another man get close to me again.
I'm dealing with the fact that everyday I just want to rip someone's head off.
I'm dealing with the fact that when I finally opened up to him, he just tossed me aside because he, himself, couldn't deal with it.
I'm dealing with the fact that there is no such thing as unconditional love when it comes to a relationship with a man.
I'm dealing with the fact that I only have my family and True friends to rely on.
I'm dealing with the fact that I'm going to remain alone for the rest of my life.
I'm dealing with the fact that people whom I trusted, tried to change me rather than accept me as a whole.
I'm dealing with the fact that I have to face all of this pain alone.
I'm dealing with the fact that he lied to me.
I'm dealing with the fact that he turned his back on me.
I'm dealing with the fact that I can be fine without him.
I'm dealing with the fact that I won't be hurt again.
I'm dealing with the fact that I'm not eating very much anymore.
I'm dealing with the fact that I can't sleep much anymore.
I'm dealing with the fact that I'm beginning to show rage issuses.
I'm dealing with the fact that I wasn't given the chance to defend myself.
I'm dealing with the fact that I'm always read wrong.
I'm dealing with the fact that I'm tired of crying so hard I can't breathe.
I"m done with all of this.
No more of this he said she said bullshit. If everyone I knew are just out for themselves, it's about damned fucking time I get pissed off and stay this way. No one will ever hurt me again. I won't even allow them to get close enough to do it.
I was told I think the world revolves around me. If that person had any fucking sense at all, then he would have known me better than that. I do not think the world revolves around me, I never have and I never will. Then I was called a whore...nice huh? Oh and a Two Faced Bitch.
This is supposed to hurt me? Was that to tell me how horrible of a person I am? Well sorry, it didn't work. It just pissed me the fuck off.
People can think and say whatever they hell they want. Their choice. You wanna try and hurt me, go right ahead. Because in the end, it's just going to turn around and bite you on the ass.
I've had enough.