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sometimes when i'm sitting somewhere in my house a part of the wall or the floor will just spontaneously creak. after seven years of living here i still can't get used to these house noises. house noises are different from apartment noises. in an apartment you can blame any odd creak or thump on your neighbors, but in house all the noises are mysterious.
i don't like feeling out of touch with life. that is why i want to always live in or around an urban area, and it's also why i like apartments. i remember when i was eight or nine i was sort of paranoid... i had alot of irrational fears of things falling on me and killing me in my sleep, my family suddenly disappearing into thin air, spontaneous combustion of the kitchen or heaters- really messed up things. sometimes i'd go to bed and i couldn't even close my eyes i was so scared, and then suddenly i'd hear my upstairs neighbor moving around and i'd feel strangely relieved, as if i wasn't alone in my restlessness. i sleep better knowing i'm not alone.
i don't like feeling out of touch with life. that is why i want to always live in or around an urban area, and it's also why i like apartments. i remember when i was eight or nine i was sort of paranoid... i had alot of irrational fears of things falling on me and killing me in my sleep, my family suddenly disappearing into thin air, spontaneous combustion of the kitchen or heaters- really messed up things. sometimes i'd go to bed and i couldn't even close my eyes i was so scared, and then suddenly i'd hear my upstairs neighbor moving around and i'd feel strangely relieved, as if i wasn't alone in my restlessness. i sleep better knowing i'm not alone.