I NEED A HUG!!!!!!!! So sad...so sad...
So today was like my first day of teaching and it was as horrible as my freakin nightmare of kids attacking me with thumb nails-in fact, IT WAS WORST!!!! At this moment, I am freakin frustated, annoyed and aggravated and grumpy!!! I hate these kids! They're annoying, disrespectful, stupid, and think they're just sooooo cute! Bastards! BASTARDS! DAMN F*****ING BASTARDS!!! AHHHHHHHH!!!! I HATE MY JOB ALREADY! I'M AS EAGER TO GO TO LUNCH AND RECESS AS THEY F****ING ARE! *hyperventilating*......i need a hug!! I need a shoulder to lie and rest on!! I NEED A HUG!!! *crying* AHHHHHHH!! Jeanne did have it that great either.
So I started with these 6 5th graders (only 6!!!!) and I thought I had it easy, but NOOOO....THOSE KIDS ARE F***ING ANNOYING! I tried to be friendly, but they only take advantage of me, interrupting my lectures. One stupid and if i may say, ugly little bratty girl even came up to me to give me a proposal letter saying that if they paid attention while i teach, i'll give them a lot of free time! I swear she and the others are freakin disrespectful. There's no other time in my life how I wished soooo much i looked older. These kids know i'm young, know that this isn't a REAL school and absolutely try to take advantage of me. Suddenly, I realized and figured out why some subs and new teachers start off mean like Mr. Chin in physics, why my elementary teacher always told my parents they loved me because I was so well behaved and made their job much easier, and how Mr. Williams once said to me that I needed to learn how to handle and discipline the kids. He said,"I mean, I have my size to intimidate them, what would you do?" Ahhhh!!! I'm just soooo freaking frustrated. So after my 5th grade experience, I decided to give all my other grades that I'll be having in the next few days "the bitch look" for the first impression. It worked with my first graders. I was able to tame the notoriously obnoxious kid named Raymond! Unfortunately, I had this other first grader who can't speak english and needed me to translate in mandarin for him-and my mandarin is bad-thank god he knows enough english and can make out my poor mandarin! I'm already warning Jeanne about my evil 5th graders and now she warns me about her evil 4th graders, in which one called her a fob and the other one "Albert" happens to be the principal's son---he's a major wreck, but both me and Jeanne can't do anything about it because he's the freakin principal's son! Bastard Asshole! A warning to all future teacher wannabes---don't be nice, discipline hard in the beginning. After this, I refuse to teach annoying elementary kids!!! I don't care how much they pay me. At this rate, I'll get an ulcer faster than with me studying for APs in HS. Stupid kids. The only cool thing that happened today was during the lunch break, when me and Jeanne visited Mr. Williams' firework stand. He gave us some tips on disciplinary skills---which i hope to be able to incorporate somehow. I really hate disciplining kids-I just never did that before. I mean, I always played the compromising TA role. Now, I know I have to work up my guts to discipline this assholes from hell. I swear, the next kid that disrespects me will be used as a scapegoat and sent to the principal's office. That'll teach these assholes---but then again, they're so stupid and haughty, they probably won't get it until i send them all in! UGH!!!! At that rate, I'll be fired or something!! Somebody hug me!! I NEED A HUG...*whimpers in tears* That's it! I'm not becoming no teacher-besides, they don't pay me enough for this shitwork anyways!!!!!! So how was your day??? GIVE ME A HUG!!! People, you must eat lunch with me someday, so I can at least be able to relax in a friendly atmosphere. Jeanne helps, but she suffers the same that I suffer. So anybody, care for a lunch with poor me, so you can give me a hug??? :( Definately postponing childbearing/adopting plans!!!!! :(
So I started with these 6 5th graders (only 6!!!!) and I thought I had it easy, but NOOOO....THOSE KIDS ARE F***ING ANNOYING! I tried to be friendly, but they only take advantage of me, interrupting my lectures. One stupid and if i may say, ugly little bratty girl even came up to me to give me a proposal letter saying that if they paid attention while i teach, i'll give them a lot of free time! I swear she and the others are freakin disrespectful. There's no other time in my life how I wished soooo much i looked older. These kids know i'm young, know that this isn't a REAL school and absolutely try to take advantage of me. Suddenly, I realized and figured out why some subs and new teachers start off mean like Mr. Chin in physics, why my elementary teacher always told my parents they loved me because I was so well behaved and made their job much easier, and how Mr. Williams once said to me that I needed to learn how to handle and discipline the kids. He said,"I mean, I have my size to intimidate them, what would you do?" Ahhhh!!! I'm just soooo freaking frustrated. So after my 5th grade experience, I decided to give all my other grades that I'll be having in the next few days "the bitch look" for the first impression. It worked with my first graders. I was able to tame the notoriously obnoxious kid named Raymond! Unfortunately, I had this other first grader who can't speak english and needed me to translate in mandarin for him-and my mandarin is bad-thank god he knows enough english and can make out my poor mandarin! I'm already warning Jeanne about my evil 5th graders and now she warns me about her evil 4th graders, in which one called her a fob and the other one "Albert" happens to be the principal's son---he's a major wreck, but both me and Jeanne can't do anything about it because he's the freakin principal's son! Bastard Asshole! A warning to all future teacher wannabes---don't be nice, discipline hard in the beginning. After this, I refuse to teach annoying elementary kids!!! I don't care how much they pay me. At this rate, I'll get an ulcer faster than with me studying for APs in HS. Stupid kids. The only cool thing that happened today was during the lunch break, when me and Jeanne visited Mr. Williams' firework stand. He gave us some tips on disciplinary skills---which i hope to be able to incorporate somehow. I really hate disciplining kids-I just never did that before. I mean, I always played the compromising TA role. Now, I know I have to work up my guts to discipline this assholes from hell. I swear, the next kid that disrespects me will be used as a scapegoat and sent to the principal's office. That'll teach these assholes---but then again, they're so stupid and haughty, they probably won't get it until i send them all in! UGH!!!! At that rate, I'll be fired or something!! Somebody hug me!! I NEED A HUG...*whimpers in tears* That's it! I'm not becoming no teacher-besides, they don't pay me enough for this shitwork anyways!!!!!! So how was your day??? GIVE ME A HUG!!! People, you must eat lunch with me someday, so I can at least be able to relax in a friendly atmosphere. Jeanne helps, but she suffers the same that I suffer. So anybody, care for a lunch with poor me, so you can give me a hug??? :( Definately postponing childbearing/adopting plans!!!!! :(