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Isn't is sad when you know theres noone to talk to about anything important anymore. I feel as if the whole world that I created for myself is gone.
I get so caught up in books, myself, and my writing that i lose sight of everything else.
I had this really weird dream about Kevin today during a nap. It went like this:
Me and Kevin captured some guy who had murdered Jesse and he was unconscious and wanted by the law and he had tried to kill all of us, and he had killed Kim. We picked up the guy and put him in my trunk, bc the guy was dead or passed out or something. I remember being afraid he'd wake up. I told Kevin to watch the guy and sit in the backseat in case the guy decided to push through the seat and kill us both. So Kevin said, "yeah, I should" and then for some reason doors slammed and I assumed Kevin was in the car. Then I drove off, and headed up the hill to some campus at some college, when I realized Kevin wasnt there, so I turned around and got to the parking lot again, and there were cops everywhere and Kevin had been murdered by some other murderer and his body was bloody and gross and I remember that at that moment he embodied everyone I'd ever been in love with and I cried for him and had a flashback to a time when me and Kevin were together and driving, and he leaned in and kissed me deep. Then I started screaming and telling the cop abt the guy in my trunk, and they thought I had killed Kevin, bc it made no sense how he could be murdered that fast and so brutally.
In the end I was not guilty, and i remember being scared and unprotected and afraid.
So ok: This dream makes no sense, bc I've never liked Kevin or been attracted to him. I've never kissed the guy or been kissed by him.
So its really weird to me why I dreamed this.
I think its related to Jesse and the virginity debacle.
Regardless Im seriously disturbed.
I get so caught up in books, myself, and my writing that i lose sight of everything else.
I had this really weird dream about Kevin today during a nap. It went like this:
Me and Kevin captured some guy who had murdered Jesse and he was unconscious and wanted by the law and he had tried to kill all of us, and he had killed Kim. We picked up the guy and put him in my trunk, bc the guy was dead or passed out or something. I remember being afraid he'd wake up. I told Kevin to watch the guy and sit in the backseat in case the guy decided to push through the seat and kill us both. So Kevin said, "yeah, I should" and then for some reason doors slammed and I assumed Kevin was in the car. Then I drove off, and headed up the hill to some campus at some college, when I realized Kevin wasnt there, so I turned around and got to the parking lot again, and there were cops everywhere and Kevin had been murdered by some other murderer and his body was bloody and gross and I remember that at that moment he embodied everyone I'd ever been in love with and I cried for him and had a flashback to a time when me and Kevin were together and driving, and he leaned in and kissed me deep. Then I started screaming and telling the cop abt the guy in my trunk, and they thought I had killed Kevin, bc it made no sense how he could be murdered that fast and so brutally.
In the end I was not guilty, and i remember being scared and unprotected and afraid.
So ok: This dream makes no sense, bc I've never liked Kevin or been attracted to him. I've never kissed the guy or been kissed by him.
So its really weird to me why I dreamed this.
I think its related to Jesse and the virginity debacle.
Regardless Im seriously disturbed.