this is weird

[emodacious]

i know that i hit on guys more than i breathe. it's not hard for me to hit on guys. i basically live for it. but now, i seem scared to do it only to this one particular boy. he scares me in a way that i haven't felt in a long time. i don't know whether to pursue what i feel or to just not do anything about it. i know i'll eventually do something because i liked this kid for about a year. he makes me feel like a little girl again with butterflies. he tried kissing me and i pushed away and then he kissed me on the cheek. which i thought was the sweetest thing ever. usually i'm the person who goes for the first kiss and shit but not this time. he's nice and sweet. and cracks me up. maybe this is just a moment thing and i hope it never ends. it's weird. we also know the same people, but never met each other before. weird right?
when i kissed him, he said "i feel like i'm in heaven."