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so mom had her surgery friday. she's ok. she'll be in the hospital another week or so.
im working her job, and pretty much took over the duties of the house. well was forced into taking over all the duties, cuz my shit of a kid sister won't lift a finger more then she used to.. but evidently claims i never did anything ever anyway. I guess it must be true ya know, if the queen and her boyfriend both say it.
it's been a tough week. been on the verge of tears, if not crying already all weekend.
I can't stand my family anymore. It's getting to the point where I have to get out of here or I'm going to hurt myself. I can't leave cuz no one will take care of the pets, and we can't have that. If it weren't for mom, i'd be so long gone by now. I just can't take it here. I don't understand why they constantly feel the need to cut me down, to belittle me day in and day out. I hate them.
I can't see this going on much longer. If i don't get out of here soon it's going to be bad. I literally hate them.
I don't really have any friends on long island and it sucks. I'm not ms popularity I never really was, I just had a group of friends. Now i got no one. It just sucks. I need to get out of here, but wherea m i supposed to go.
I wish that ron wasn't leaving also. but that's a lost cause, i knew what i was getting into and i was a fool to let myself care as much as i did for him. a complete fool. but the time we were with each other was just so good. i was actually happy. happier then i had been in a very very long time. and it's over, cuz nothing good in my life is meant to last.
im working her job, and pretty much took over the duties of the house. well was forced into taking over all the duties, cuz my shit of a kid sister won't lift a finger more then she used to.. but evidently claims i never did anything ever anyway. I guess it must be true ya know, if the queen and her boyfriend both say it.
it's been a tough week. been on the verge of tears, if not crying already all weekend.
I can't stand my family anymore. It's getting to the point where I have to get out of here or I'm going to hurt myself. I can't leave cuz no one will take care of the pets, and we can't have that. If it weren't for mom, i'd be so long gone by now. I just can't take it here. I don't understand why they constantly feel the need to cut me down, to belittle me day in and day out. I hate them.
I can't see this going on much longer. If i don't get out of here soon it's going to be bad. I literally hate them.
I don't really have any friends on long island and it sucks. I'm not ms popularity I never really was, I just had a group of friends. Now i got no one. It just sucks. I need to get out of here, but wherea m i supposed to go.
I wish that ron wasn't leaving also. but that's a lost cause, i knew what i was getting into and i was a fool to let myself care as much as i did for him. a complete fool. but the time we were with each other was just so good. i was actually happy. happier then i had been in a very very long time. and it's over, cuz nothing good in my life is meant to last.