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who do any of you think you are.
don't you think i beat myself up enough for the decisions i've made. how i constantly question myself and my actions, and how i always second guess myself on every single thing.
its scary the thoughts that run thru my head. day in and day out. i wish i knew how to escape from them but nothing works. zoning out zoning in, anything.
seems like the only way to escape these thoughts that continuously plague me are to follow through on them. and in order to do that , i will be gone. forever.
but i don't want to be gone, there has to be another way around it. another viable answer. something, but i don't see it. and these thoughts of mine, they become clearer and clearer everyday, and i just don't know what to do about them. i have no one to go to to talk about them. those that i do go to, make light of it, or joke about it. they don't care, or they don't understand, either way they're not there for me. nobody is there fro me.
i'm scared of where i'm going.
don't you think i beat myself up enough for the decisions i've made. how i constantly question myself and my actions, and how i always second guess myself on every single thing.
its scary the thoughts that run thru my head. day in and day out. i wish i knew how to escape from them but nothing works. zoning out zoning in, anything.
seems like the only way to escape these thoughts that continuously plague me are to follow through on them. and in order to do that , i will be gone. forever.
but i don't want to be gone, there has to be another way around it. another viable answer. something, but i don't see it. and these thoughts of mine, they become clearer and clearer everyday, and i just don't know what to do about them. i have no one to go to to talk about them. those that i do go to, make light of it, or joke about it. they don't care, or they don't understand, either way they're not there for me. nobody is there fro me.
i'm scared of where i'm going.