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ever since justin came here brandon's had this new found love for me.
brandon turned 22.
he has a drawer in my dresser now.
i wash the dirty clothes he leaves at my house.
it's like finding a nice present when everything comes out of the dryer.
he bought me flowers. the first boy to ever buy me flowers.
brandon was supposed to see wheatus with me. he didn't come. i dragged a bunch of other people. kristie wasn't there. it felt so wrong and horrible to not have her there. that was the first time i ever did something and i KNEW it was wrong to not have her there.
i turned 19.
kristie and justin bought me an ipod because they are crazy. i love them.
brandon bought me flowers again. roses. in all different colors.
i decided to go on birth control. for the first time in my life.
they asked me these questions at planned parenthood.
how old were you when you first had intercourse? 16
how many sexual partners have you had in the past year? 3
how many sexual partners have you had ever? 3
do you ever want children? no (why do they care, i don't know this shit)
brandon wants to have three children. what's with people wanting to have babies. they should stop.
so now i'm on birth control that my lovely boyfriend pays for.
my sister.
oh my sister.
scott called me on my birthday. i was going to call him on his. but i didn't. i'm shitty.
i am not interested in what he writes anymore.
brandon is getting high right now.
so imperfect.
he hates sleeping at my house.
he has too many problems.
this makes me hate him.
but he treats me wonderfully.
and he makes me happy.
the things i let him do.
i used to never let people do.
what happened to me?
he is an asshole.
brandon cut off his beautiful curly hair. he looks like he's going to join the army. it broke my heart.
brandon turned 22.
he has a drawer in my dresser now.
i wash the dirty clothes he leaves at my house.
it's like finding a nice present when everything comes out of the dryer.
he bought me flowers. the first boy to ever buy me flowers.
brandon was supposed to see wheatus with me. he didn't come. i dragged a bunch of other people. kristie wasn't there. it felt so wrong and horrible to not have her there. that was the first time i ever did something and i KNEW it was wrong to not have her there.
i turned 19.
kristie and justin bought me an ipod because they are crazy. i love them.
brandon bought me flowers again. roses. in all different colors.
i decided to go on birth control. for the first time in my life.
they asked me these questions at planned parenthood.
how old were you when you first had intercourse? 16
how many sexual partners have you had in the past year? 3
how many sexual partners have you had ever? 3
do you ever want children? no (why do they care, i don't know this shit)
brandon wants to have three children. what's with people wanting to have babies. they should stop.
so now i'm on birth control that my lovely boyfriend pays for.
my sister.
oh my sister.
scott called me on my birthday. i was going to call him on his. but i didn't. i'm shitty.
i am not interested in what he writes anymore.
brandon is getting high right now.
so imperfect.
he hates sleeping at my house.
he has too many problems.
this makes me hate him.
but he treats me wonderfully.
and he makes me happy.
the things i let him do.
i used to never let people do.
what happened to me?
he is an asshole.
brandon cut off his beautiful curly hair. he looks like he's going to join the army. it broke my heart.