dirty whores never turn back.

[emobarbiee]

so so so so.

i shall be old soon.
19. i may die.
brandon turns 22 on sat.
i tell him he's going to die constantly.
he agrees.
he's a good boy.
within the past week he's decided that he really likes me. so recently he has been seeing me a lot.
i make him carry me everywhere, because i'm a baby. and i am also the same age as his baby sister. it's a good reminder.
he takes care of me, because he's southern.
it used to be hard to find a nice boy, now i think it would be hard to find a bad one.
justin is visiting me and thinks brandon's too considerate of my needs.

i am also turning into my dog.

i do not believe in love.
i've officially just decided.
everyone should watch sex and the city. because it's what everyone wants to see.

work is work.
i am prolly not going to be able to come up till january. lame.

i forgot how to type and spell.

and how my heart beats.

i miss kristie.
i do.

puppies.

miss you all.
i do i do.

i have a friend lindsey.
i have to tell her things.

nobody understands.

dirty lies.

i've been good.
i want to be.
always.
is that too much to ask?

YES.

i refuse to accept that i am a horrible person.

i'm happy. in that way.
(what does that mean?)

i just want to know how you feel.
please tell me one day.