It's Josh's Birthday!!
Holly Eff... so the other night i had a total mental break down. Ya know what? it was like just after a break up, thats how i felt. I just stared for a really long time and felt like hell. Aaron came over to try to make me feel better, but i just stared and then i broke down and cried alone on my bed and asked him to leave. i didnt want him to see me like that.. but he did and it was horrible. anyways i feel better now. well its not that everythings been fixed, its more that i know that it WONT be fixed and ya know what, theres nothing i can do about it so i cant keep killing myself over it.
Things end sumtimes wether u want them to or not. Id like to start talking to new people and hanging out with sum of the old, new, people. haha. I miss good times with greg and ashley too. i want to dye mikes hair for him :O) i think hes gonna let me. I need to go see Darby, hopefully tomorrow after my boy goes to work <3 She needs me right now and i want to be there for her. Not so much becuz im mad at alex, but more becuz im giving up on alex. I want to help her get over it and detach from him.. cuz it seems that i might need help doing the same... yeah ur aloud to love ur friends. i love them both. anywayz,
ITS TOTALLY MY BIRTHDAY NEXT WEEKEND!! and its TOTALLY JOSH'S BIRTHDAY TODAY!! SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HIM!! anywayz there will be further notice about a denny's gathering on next Saturday night.. later..
okay then.. ummm i have this really great boy.. his name is aaron.. he is nice to me and sweet and brought me flowers at work last night becuz of my bad day on tuesday.. he is miraculous <3 i hope he puts up with me for a while longer :O)
Things end sumtimes wether u want them to or not. Id like to start talking to new people and hanging out with sum of the old, new, people. haha. I miss good times with greg and ashley too. i want to dye mikes hair for him :O) i think hes gonna let me. I need to go see Darby, hopefully tomorrow after my boy goes to work <3 She needs me right now and i want to be there for her. Not so much becuz im mad at alex, but more becuz im giving up on alex. I want to help her get over it and detach from him.. cuz it seems that i might need help doing the same... yeah ur aloud to love ur friends. i love them both. anywayz,
ITS TOTALLY MY BIRTHDAY NEXT WEEKEND!! and its TOTALLY JOSH'S BIRTHDAY TODAY!! SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HIM!! anywayz there will be further notice about a denny's gathering on next Saturday night.. later..
okay then.. ummm i have this really great boy.. his name is aaron.. he is nice to me and sweet and brought me flowers at work last night becuz of my bad day on tuesday.. he is miraculous <3 i hope he puts up with me for a while longer :O)