i'm going to regret this later
i feel so fucking inadequate.
i don't even know why i bother to write anymore. I'll never be that good. I read something like that and it makes me want to cry, because it's so much more then i'll ever be
i spent months on that fic. i wrote, and rewrote and changed and molded it until it was exactly how i wanted it. It's the best thing I've ever written. I put more effort into it then i have anything else, ever.
I put more of myself into that fic then i ever have.
I exposed more of my own feelings in that fic then i do to anyone else other then J and Ems.
only 4 people read it.
and i just.
i don't want to try anymore.
it takes to much, and it hurts. it. always. hurts. so. much.
i'm so tired of fighting this battle.
i don't even know why i bother to write anymore. I'll never be that good. I read something like that and it makes me want to cry, because it's so much more then i'll ever be
i spent months on that fic. i wrote, and rewrote and changed and molded it until it was exactly how i wanted it. It's the best thing I've ever written. I put more effort into it then i have anything else, ever.
I put more of myself into that fic then i ever have.
I exposed more of my own feelings in that fic then i do to anyone else other then J and Ems.
only 4 people read it.
and i just.
i don't want to try anymore.
it takes to much, and it hurts. it. always. hurts. so. much.
i'm so tired of fighting this battle.