Pros and Cons of today
Pros:
Band. seriously, I can't believe how much i missed this.
My band teacher accidently implying she had pot in her salad (she didn't, it was just some weeds. but we heard "weed")
VELCRO FETISH!!!!! (really, just my guy friends. one in particular, i've missed his humor. It's nice to see him again. He talks to me like what i say means something, talks to me like he does all his other guys. He just... lets me be silly. he's a good friend, one of the few)
The fact that I don't actually think honors Chem will kill me, which was something I was worried about.
Cons:
The fact that, while I seem to have mostly gotten over The Boy, i'm in even deeper for The Girl. Which sucks, because she's even more unattainable then he was, seeing has she's both straight, and has a boyfriend. But i spent all of Chem trying not to stare at her. she's gorgeous
The person who has been up until now my closest friend at school maybe said 3 words to me today, and they were mocking. people suck.
Honors French probably will kill me.
I'm woodwork again. Seriously, I sit in class and watch everyone talk about how awesome their summers were. No one asks me. No one cares if i saw my two favorite bands play live. No one cares. But you know what? fuck them. jesus, i don't care about everyone. i just want my 'friends' to care about me.
On that note, I had to go back to pretending. I having to go back to being that girl who cares about school and her few friends and not much else. I can't talk about bandom, can't slash, can't do the things I do for FUN. *sigh*
I miss last years seniors. The school seems so empty and quiet without them.
I left that french translation i spent all of yesterday do at home on my computer. Seriosuly, FLM. I don't even know how I managed that. Luckily, my teacher was really cool and discreet about it, so i can just turn it in tomorrow morning and not get any points off. but still. I don't even know.
And did I mention that girl? How impossible and gorgeous she is? Did I mention that usually she sees right through me, but every time she does say something to me, my stupid heart jumps? Fuck
Band. seriously, I can't believe how much i missed this.
My band teacher accidently implying she had pot in her salad (she didn't, it was just some weeds. but we heard "weed")
VELCRO FETISH!!!!! (really, just my guy friends. one in particular, i've missed his humor. It's nice to see him again. He talks to me like what i say means something, talks to me like he does all his other guys. He just... lets me be silly. he's a good friend, one of the few)
The fact that I don't actually think honors Chem will kill me, which was something I was worried about.
Cons:
The fact that, while I seem to have mostly gotten over The Boy, i'm in even deeper for The Girl. Which sucks, because she's even more unattainable then he was, seeing has she's both straight, and has a boyfriend. But i spent all of Chem trying not to stare at her. she's gorgeous
The person who has been up until now my closest friend at school maybe said 3 words to me today, and they were mocking. people suck.
Honors French probably will kill me.
I'm woodwork again. Seriously, I sit in class and watch everyone talk about how awesome their summers were. No one asks me. No one cares if i saw my two favorite bands play live. No one cares. But you know what? fuck them. jesus, i don't care about everyone. i just want my 'friends' to care about me.
On that note, I had to go back to pretending. I having to go back to being that girl who cares about school and her few friends and not much else. I can't talk about bandom, can't slash, can't do the things I do for FUN. *sigh*
I miss last years seniors. The school seems so empty and quiet without them.
I left that french translation i spent all of yesterday do at home on my computer. Seriosuly, FLM. I don't even know how I managed that. Luckily, my teacher was really cool and discreet about it, so i can just turn it in tomorrow morning and not get any points off. but still. I don't even know.
And did I mention that girl? How impossible and gorgeous she is? Did I mention that usually she sees right through me, but every time she does say something to me, my stupid heart jumps? Fuck