So, yeah...
Got ousted from ABNA. Sad, of course. I really thought this one might at least get me to the next round, it's an interesting enough premise. But whatever, it's not like I ever have high hopes with these things.
On a brighter note, I did win a fifty dollar gift card for Amazon. Though the funny and also sad thing is that while there are a couple books I wouldn't mind getting, there's nothing that I've been absolutely pining over getting and not being able to afford to, due to the fact I've been trying to be reaaallly careful with money lately. Maybe I'm just out of the loop, but there's just not anything out there that really speaks to me. I even looked up the top 100 sci fi and fantasy novels being sold on Amazon. Which, as it turns out, is pretty much two-thirds vampires, demons, and witches. I'm not surprised, but I'm ready for a new trend.
Sometimes I think one of the main reasons I became a writer is because I'm always searching for something in regards to books, and have never really been able to find it to my satisfaction, except in a few instances. There are some books that speak to me on a deep level, that actually affect me physically during and after reading them. Honestly, I'm always a wreck after I read "The Last Unicorn" for example.
I miss that feeling, that deep connection with a book. I'll really enjoy something, and even be unable to put it down. But nowadays I just don't get that pull, that physical feeling. It's never quite right, or it's not what I expected it to be, or it's just plain awful. So I write my own stories, but still, there's that elusive feeling. I've written some books, and tried to write a great deal more that will never be. But though sometimes I think "Yes, this is what I've been trying to find" I'll always find myself searching again after the story is over. So I keep writing, and searching. I know already the book I'm writing now isn't it either, and it's proving a trial just for me to get myself into writing it. But that's mostly because I'm out of practice, rather than any reluctance over writing the story itself. Yes, it's the most cracked, out there concept I've ever come up with (and for those who know the plots to my novels, know that that's saying something) but it's one that's been germinating for almost a year, and after that amount of time, I figure it deserves a chance.
What it all boils down to is that I realize, intellectually, that there never will be that perfect novel, whether written or simply read. But that will never stop me from trying to find it anyway.
On a brighter note, I did win a fifty dollar gift card for Amazon. Though the funny and also sad thing is that while there are a couple books I wouldn't mind getting, there's nothing that I've been absolutely pining over getting and not being able to afford to, due to the fact I've been trying to be reaaallly careful with money lately. Maybe I'm just out of the loop, but there's just not anything out there that really speaks to me. I even looked up the top 100 sci fi and fantasy novels being sold on Amazon. Which, as it turns out, is pretty much two-thirds vampires, demons, and witches. I'm not surprised, but I'm ready for a new trend.
Sometimes I think one of the main reasons I became a writer is because I'm always searching for something in regards to books, and have never really been able to find it to my satisfaction, except in a few instances. There are some books that speak to me on a deep level, that actually affect me physically during and after reading them. Honestly, I'm always a wreck after I read "The Last Unicorn" for example.
I miss that feeling, that deep connection with a book. I'll really enjoy something, and even be unable to put it down. But nowadays I just don't get that pull, that physical feeling. It's never quite right, or it's not what I expected it to be, or it's just plain awful. So I write my own stories, but still, there's that elusive feeling. I've written some books, and tried to write a great deal more that will never be. But though sometimes I think "Yes, this is what I've been trying to find" I'll always find myself searching again after the story is over. So I keep writing, and searching. I know already the book I'm writing now isn't it either, and it's proving a trial just for me to get myself into writing it. But that's mostly because I'm out of practice, rather than any reluctance over writing the story itself. Yes, it's the most cracked, out there concept I've ever come up with (and for those who know the plots to my novels, know that that's saying something) but it's one that's been germinating for almost a year, and after that amount of time, I figure it deserves a chance.
What it all boils down to is that I realize, intellectually, that there never will be that perfect novel, whether written or simply read. But that will never stop me from trying to find it anyway.