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[emmajerome]

If this is how life feels i don't want it
its disappointing people every day and breaking hearts who want nothing other than to love you.
love the fuck out of you.
if you could all just hate me i think it would be easier.

and genuinely hate me. none of this pain cloaked in hatred, ian.

because i cry for you and you and you. and then i cry for me.
because this isn't what i want to do.
i'm only happy if you are happy
and i cant make you happy
so it's a certain hopelessness.
helplessness.
sadness.

i don't have no god to teach me no lessons
so mistakes i'll just keep making.