Days go by......
Okay I'm like in a bad mood so forgive me,and if you are going to tell me I complain too much or anything of that nature,don't even bother to read this then because I don't want to hear it forreal.
Alright so me and my mom go to eat lunch,and they didn't have it today at the church,so that sucked!
Then we went to our storage area so we could find my dad's Birth Certificate which was in his dresser which was all the way in the back surrounded by shit,and it was fucking freezing outside.Like my mom said the storage area wouldn't be so unorganized and shit everywhere if my dad would have put the shit in there how she asked,but nope that is a man for you can't follow simple directions.So now he is sick and we have to freeze our asses off searching for his shit to apply for his disability/SSI.Not to mention after we found the Birth Certificate,it's his original one from before he was adopted into the Pelka Family,so now we have to go through hell to get his adoption papers and try to get a Birth Certificate made out for his adopted last name instead of his old last name.How come nothing can go right for this family?please tell me!!One good thing is I did get some of my hair/makeup stuff and clothes out of storage.Anywho so like an hour and a half later we come home,and try to find something to eat for lunch,since as I said they weren't serving any today.I feel even more sorry for the homeless people who that's all the food they get all day,and haven't had any since friday since they don't serve on the weekends.My sister got home from school,and then at 4:30pm my mom had to take her to her cheerleading practice.They got home at like 7:30pm and my sister is all telling me how Dennis was asking about me,saying I was the cutest white girl,and that he wanted to talk to me and all this stuff.I was like kayla did you tell him sorry she has a bf?she was like why would I tell him that so he doesnt like you anymore?I was like uhh yea!!Ok so it's like 1 minute until the show that me,my mom and sister have been waiting for,for a month to come on,and my dad somehow pushes some buttons on the remote to fuck it all up,we end up missing half of our show because of him,my mom told him not to touch the remote because he can't see the buttons and everytime he touches it,he fucks something up,but does he listen?nope of course not,so she layed into him about that.she was pissed!!!so were me and my sister.So finally 8:30pm my mom fixed it somehow and we got to watch it,but all the good parts already happened,so we were still mad.My mom is going to give herself a heart attack I swear,too much stress.She has gray hair!!She never had any before,she needs a break.and my dad I'm sorry but he is irritating us all,there is something more wrong with him than the Cancer and my mom is telling the doctors this at his appointment on Wednesday.He is mean,he is nasty he goes off at nothing at all,hitting our poor cats,he is depressed(yea join the fucking club,aren't we all),he can't talk well,and he won't talk.His Tube feeding Food is making him sick and he refuses to eat regular food because he can't taste it,he is also sick from the Chemo and he will not go to the hospital.We tell him he needs to go and he goes off threatening us and shit.He needs some counseling,like my mom said.But she ain't getting off scott free either,she tells me to do stuff then when I ask or say I am going to she won't let me(referring to finding a job).Now Stephen,he left me a message today when I was pissy watching the other half of my show,but we really havent been talking and that is just making me depressed because he is the person I talk to about everything and vent to and share the strongest love bond with.I mean it's not his fault he can't always talk to me,but that doesn't help anything.My throat is starting to bother me again,ugh I hate this weather!!I don't get the chance to talk to most of my friends anymore..Chad,Guadalupe,Derek,Jessy,Melanie.I sometimes get to talk to Danielle,Jamie,and Hope,but not often.I talk to Ann that's about it,and I am really glad I at least have her to talk to.I didn't get a whole lot of sleep last night because I kept thinking of things,I swear I am going to think myself to death one of these nights.I miss so many things,and so many people.I just don't know what to do with my life.I need to smoke to relieve all this stress.........I love you all!!!!!!!
P.S.-I have a Pink hair band it's cute!!hehe
The more the light shines through me I pretend to close my eyes.