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i can't say i'm feeling depressed lately. i feel really blank. like right now. i don't know what to feel. it agravates me a lot. i'm not happy. i'm not mad. i'm not sad. i'm nothing. i want to be something. i hate not having feelings. i don't know whats wrong with me. when i was pissed off the another night i just sat there and couldn't do anything. when i sad the other night i couldn't even cry, crying always makes me feel better. when i was happy the other day, i couldn't even jump for joy and run around doing silly stuff. i just sit here like a robot in front of my computer. i feel blank. i want to feel something, happiness perferably. i repeated myself a billion times in this single blah, but i'm just so confused, i don't know what to feel right now. upbeat music doesn't make me dance anymore. music that reminded me of a certain boy doesn't depress me anymore, music that made me angry doesn't make me want to ruin that boy's life. music can't even do anything for me anymore, it can't help me express how i feel. it's just noise blarring form my speakers.