The Night of Legends...
Lets have a break down of this evening and how I had hoped it would have been an awesome, fun, and exciting night and it ended up being nothing of the sort...
Well Kaite came over after school and did my hair and make-up and we ate Greek Salad and chocolate covered marshmellows...so she kept me company and helped me look cute or somewhat.
Then when Katie and I got to school she left me when Steven got there and I just was sitting outside by myself just kinda sitting there...oh doesnt that sound exciting...no not really...then I was kinda just walking around waiting and trying to find someone who would talk to me...well then I finally just went in the chorus room and sat in a chair in the corner all by myself and just kinda sat and watched everyne else have a good old time...i think Liz came over once and said hi but then got up and walked away just like everyone else...sometimes I wonder why I even do chorus at school...whenever Im doing anything with the chorus I feel COMPLETELY ALONE...I sat in the same corner all alone and no one knew the difference....whatever...no one would have noticed if I wasnt there anyways!!! Tonight I felt completely invisible...
I was invisible to my parents because they were to busy picking out every flaw in the performance and then feel inclined to share with me how it could have been better and then just go on to nit pick at every little detail...I dont know there is just a point where enoguh is enough and never did I hear a "we enjoyed your concert...good job we are proud of you"...and then I was invisible to everyone on stage because they were all worried about the music and their own acts
...and then the only people that made me feel a little like I wasnt invisible were Steven and Mrs. Vanessa who gave me a hug as they were leaving...Kate Russell came up and gave me a hug before she left...and then Mrs. Aghoian is by far the sweetest lady I have ever met in my entire life...if she hadnt come up gave me a hug and told me what a good job I did and how she took a bunch of pictures of me just because I looked cute...I dont know what I would have done had she not been there to make me feel as though I wanst invisible...she gives me something to work towards because I dont think there is anyone else I would want to be more like in this world...if I could be half the person she is that would be amazing...but she has no idea how greatly the small comment and few seconds of time she spent talking to me touched my heart and just made all the difference in the world...
then Katie and I wnet and got milkshakes because I was terrified that if I went to the awards thing I would end up sitting by myslef because that has seemed to become a trend lately and that when it came time for me to go up and get my letter pin thing that no one would clap and scream...people would either boo or there would just be silence....thats the main reason I was so scared to go to that ceremony...
Then I was sitting at home all sad and upset...literally seconds from breaking down in tears...when my phone rang and eric told me to go get something out of my mail box so I went and when I looked there was nothing there and as I looked up I saw him walking towards me with flowers and he made me smile and laugh and I think that was a good way to end this awful horrible night...well at least I know that I have one guy friend who will give me a hug and make me smile when I need it most!!!
Well tomorrow is ATF and I have to be at church at 615 so Im calling it a night...hopefully I will have a good day full of the holy spirit...please pray for me and pray that I get through this tough time!!!
Thanks,
Em
Well Kaite came over after school and did my hair and make-up and we ate Greek Salad and chocolate covered marshmellows...so she kept me company and helped me look cute or somewhat.
Then when Katie and I got to school she left me when Steven got there and I just was sitting outside by myself just kinda sitting there...oh doesnt that sound exciting...no not really...then I was kinda just walking around waiting and trying to find someone who would talk to me...well then I finally just went in the chorus room and sat in a chair in the corner all by myself and just kinda sat and watched everyne else have a good old time...i think Liz came over once and said hi but then got up and walked away just like everyone else...sometimes I wonder why I even do chorus at school...whenever Im doing anything with the chorus I feel COMPLETELY ALONE...I sat in the same corner all alone and no one knew the difference....whatever...no one would have noticed if I wasnt there anyways!!! Tonight I felt completely invisible...
I was invisible to my parents because they were to busy picking out every flaw in the performance and then feel inclined to share with me how it could have been better and then just go on to nit pick at every little detail...I dont know there is just a point where enoguh is enough and never did I hear a "we enjoyed your concert...good job we are proud of you"...and then I was invisible to everyone on stage because they were all worried about the music and their own acts
...and then the only people that made me feel a little like I wasnt invisible were Steven and Mrs. Vanessa who gave me a hug as they were leaving...Kate Russell came up and gave me a hug before she left...and then Mrs. Aghoian is by far the sweetest lady I have ever met in my entire life...if she hadnt come up gave me a hug and told me what a good job I did and how she took a bunch of pictures of me just because I looked cute...I dont know what I would have done had she not been there to make me feel as though I wanst invisible...she gives me something to work towards because I dont think there is anyone else I would want to be more like in this world...if I could be half the person she is that would be amazing...but she has no idea how greatly the small comment and few seconds of time she spent talking to me touched my heart and just made all the difference in the world...
then Katie and I wnet and got milkshakes because I was terrified that if I went to the awards thing I would end up sitting by myslef because that has seemed to become a trend lately and that when it came time for me to go up and get my letter pin thing that no one would clap and scream...people would either boo or there would just be silence....thats the main reason I was so scared to go to that ceremony...
Then I was sitting at home all sad and upset...literally seconds from breaking down in tears...when my phone rang and eric told me to go get something out of my mail box so I went and when I looked there was nothing there and as I looked up I saw him walking towards me with flowers and he made me smile and laugh and I think that was a good way to end this awful horrible night...well at least I know that I have one guy friend who will give me a hug and make me smile when I need it most!!!
Well tomorrow is ATF and I have to be at church at 615 so Im calling it a night...hopefully I will have a good day full of the holy spirit...please pray for me and pray that I get through this tough time!!!
Thanks,
Em