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Tytt

Nov 30, 2003 23:30

The window panes were weeping. It was too dark to quite see it, but she knew anyway, because of the black drops dripping on the window sill. She had first seen it happen in her own room some days - perhaps weeks, the concept of time seemed so very blurred to her - ago, and had been strangely delighted by the sight. "It's just dust", her brother ( Read more... )

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nahkasiipi December 2 2003, 04:09:43 UTC

I wish so much I could do something for you. I try to show I care but I'm afraid you'll freak out if I do it too often. Damn it, I'm always too scared to do anything. Maybe I'll gather up enough courage to hug you one of these days.

Have you considered seeking out 'professional' help? Like, go see a psychologist? I have no idea if it would help, I've never gone to see one, but they should be able to do something. That's what they get paid for! Please, consider it?

Again, I want you to know that you will always be welcome to hang out at Eath's when I move there. Or stay the night if you feel like it. No explanations needed.

*hugs*

Speciellt sånt man aldrig får glömma... emittchi July 19 2004, 17:40:09 UTC

Indeed. Frankly, I didn't quite know how to feel about you at the time. I always seemed to sense either vibes of nervousness or annoyance from you towards me, so it made me feel very on edge too. Plus, I was bloody angry, envious and jealous of you grooving at school and work, suddenly moving from home to live with Eath and having the time of your life with your dad's new girlfriend. Guess I just can't stand other people's happiness when I'm down myself. Sorry 'bout it. It's all pretty much waining now.

About hugging... well... I freak out such things, but it doesn't mean I never want them... Umh, I don't know. Maybe it's making a big deal about it that freaks me out. Maybe it's better to just do it without warning and not let go for a while. Because heaven knows, me acting on my social desires would be an eight miracle... and that's painful too. 9_9; Mind is such a bitchy thing.

Musings. nahkasiipi July 20 2004, 08:43:19 UTC

I must admit that I don't remember what was wrong at the time, so I can't explain it. It was probably something to do with that "you, and the others, don't care about me" thing, but I don't even want to try to remember it more clearly. I don't want it to come back! I must have gotten over it mostly, because I had forgotten all about it, and only a couple of weeks ago realized that everything's been going just fine with us for some months. :)

Plus, I was bloody angry, envious and jealous of you grooving at school and work, suddenly moving from home to live with Eath and having the time of your life with your dad's new girlfriend.I can understand that about school and work, but I'm a bit angry about you adding the moving and dad's wife there. Think about it like this: haven't I had enough of troubles with my family already that I might deserve a bit of peace, maybe even happiness? I have said this a couple of times already, and don't want to sound too dramatic saying it again, but I'm not sure if you've gotten it, because you haven't ( ... )

När jag faller orkar du för två? emittchi July 20 2004, 16:01:30 UTC

Blame me for not explaining clearly enough ( ... )

...för två? Jag vet inte, men jag ska alltid försöka att orka. nahkasiipi July 21 2004, 15:39:51 UTC

Thank you for explaining this, it all makes more sense now. First of all, I am awfully sorry that I handled the moving thing so badly. I am pretty sure that I mentioned that Eath had said I might be able to move in with her before she actually decided it. But once she did, which was some time late November or early December, I just wanted to move as soon as possible, and Christmas holiday was the best time, I thought. I am pretty sure that I told you about the moving as soon as it was confirmed, but it still must have come quite suddenly ( ... )

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