"With smiles on both our faces, we spit their faulty ammo to the ground"
Yeah, I am definately ready to move. I don't like to rant about my parents, because I have been told enough times in my life that I am disrespectful that I won't give them yet another reason to say that. I just am going to say that so much of what they believe about me is untrue and unfair. I don't get it sometimes how they are allowed to be however they are allowed to be so hypocritical and they can tear at me like I am not human or can't hear them. But enough about them. I am going to be moving soon. I can't wait to get out of here. You have no idea.
I found out that I would only have to pay like $100 to get out of my plane ticket to Germany. I don't know for sure yet. I have to decide by May 27th. Please pray for me that God will show me what He wants. I am so torn about all of it. I just have no idea anymore what is right. Ah, my whole life kinda flipped upside down on top of me and I don't like it. At all. I am so grateful for Lauren Tanana though. She has been kind of a God-given rock through this stuff with my parents and with Germany. She stayed late Sunday to talk to me and help me sort through some things in my mind, and then she prayed for me while we were walking out. It almost brought me peace in the midst of extreme confusion. Like my sunlight through the clouds. I can't even explain how much she has taught me about God and about myself. We are so simular and I am so grateful that God placed her in my life. She is absolutely amazing.
Senior Project is going so well. I thought it might be kind of boring or something because it isn't what I want to do, but I am loving it. Lauren said that I am kind of going to be her personal secretary and also help her teach sometimes. She is even going to start bringing in missions trip and wedding stuff for me to help her with. I am really looking forward to the rest of the 3 weeks. I am so happy that we worked this out. It stinks being there at 7:15 every morning, but I get out at like 2:15, so it is really nice. The kids are super sweet, I love just watching them. It's a good job for me I think.
I can't wait! I only have 10 days until I get to see Joshua! You have no idea how long a couple of months can feel! I love him to death, and I can't wait for him to come and save me from the hell that I call home right now. Ah, I just wish something was stable, but at least I know that he is coming home. Hopefully my parents will at least be nice to him... yeah, right...
I found out that I would only have to pay like $100 to get out of my plane ticket to Germany. I don't know for sure yet. I have to decide by May 27th. Please pray for me that God will show me what He wants. I am so torn about all of it. I just have no idea anymore what is right. Ah, my whole life kinda flipped upside down on top of me and I don't like it. At all. I am so grateful for Lauren Tanana though. She has been kind of a God-given rock through this stuff with my parents and with Germany. She stayed late Sunday to talk to me and help me sort through some things in my mind, and then she prayed for me while we were walking out. It almost brought me peace in the midst of extreme confusion. Like my sunlight through the clouds. I can't even explain how much she has taught me about God and about myself. We are so simular and I am so grateful that God placed her in my life. She is absolutely amazing.
Senior Project is going so well. I thought it might be kind of boring or something because it isn't what I want to do, but I am loving it. Lauren said that I am kind of going to be her personal secretary and also help her teach sometimes. She is even going to start bringing in missions trip and wedding stuff for me to help her with. I am really looking forward to the rest of the 3 weeks. I am so happy that we worked this out. It stinks being there at 7:15 every morning, but I get out at like 2:15, so it is really nice. The kids are super sweet, I love just watching them. It's a good job for me I think.
I can't wait! I only have 10 days until I get to see Joshua! You have no idea how long a couple of months can feel! I love him to death, and I can't wait for him to come and save me from the hell that I call home right now. Ah, I just wish something was stable, but at least I know that he is coming home. Hopefully my parents will at least be nice to him... yeah, right...